themaggot's blog: "my poems"

The tears that well up in my eyes, burn like fire, it seems that time has come, to take another step in life, To prepare myself for the enevitable? Time is runing short, and so is my patience, what do i do? i am so confused, i feel sick to my stomach, i cant tell if in the good way or bad, time will tell me soon, weather i am ready or not, if change happens there is nothing i can do, but addapte, its the enevitable that scares me, so as the tears that burn, down my cheeks, i notice they, equal all the questons make. someone tell me its ok

Why must we all live lies? In the end we try to strighten things out Why. its to late. We always wait till the last moment to try an save ourselves What is the point of trying SO late So think while ur on ur death bed Apoligizing so late in life to people who r looking at you Thinking 'wow i trusted this person' Now they dont know who u r U lived a lie till the end an now ur alone Alone like the grave u will b in For the rest of eternity Cold in the ground regreting what youve done!

Fueled by rage stopped by pain i see my glory fade as im stopped by this pain pins an needles in my spin just spread like cancer im filling with rage because of this pain This uncontrollable circle that has taken over me my strength my wisdom my life

Trapped in this place The screaming deafens me Im wondering why This is my home In my mind i contemplate why all this hate You seem to rule all I see no crown How can someone be so fake? Deep in your eyes I see you have become The person you despised While you were young So quit taking it out on me Cause we now know What you've become

My body is my temple You treat it like a rag doll You pull the strings Until i unravel But i seem to somehow Put myself back together An it seems you want to pull the strings again My hands are tired This time i will NOT Put myself back together If you want me back You try to put me pack Pick up the crumbs Of me off the ground An you try to put this puzzle back together

Love to me is like Hovering over a bed of nails One minute your as high as the clouds Then you fall And it hurts like hell Yes you may get high And its great But the fall is SO much worse

Slow and long so you feel the pain tears come up quick they almost make you sick Gasping for breathe you hear the sobs an crys cant help but feel the sadness in the air your legs quiver as you walk you start to see my face Pale as milk a saddened look cant believe this is true so you grab my frostbitten hand it is true for i am nevermore i lay in my coffin in eternal sleep no more pain just defeat

torn in two riped at the seems good vs. bad weighed but still even what to do both so good but yet bad confustion takes me over and i fall to the floor waiting for him to walk through the door silence me for my screaming as "it" consumes me darkness takes me i am no more.....

So empty and alone, Solitude strikes again, Siting alone at night, Wondering will it be alright?, Contemplating for my sake!, When will I awake?, Someone help me before I quake!, For The Man Of The Shadow's has his take, I don't want it but I have no choice!

im between a rough patch no one to comfort me stuck by me an myself pain an confusion set into place what to do inside my mind of darkness cant i get away from this pain that surrounds me? NO i never can there is pain in every aspect of my life the only thing that can set me free is love which is something i am missing in my life the one thing i need is lost forever an gone for eternity never will i find the one thing that i need to survive!