Johnny O's blog: "My Life"

August 2, 2007 - Thursday M.I.A. Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry ok so this is an old poem,and it will soon be added to my old poetry blog.... Now im not sure when i wrote it but it was only a few years ago or so....... MIA First when the Missing in action Lost heroes Forgotten patriots Powers at be don't allow true happiness Dictatorship, balance of power We never thought we would be with out each other sittin together yet alone Not know in what to say, were do we do we go form here. As we sit on the beach side by side just enjoying each others company. Yes each of us are missing in action. By now you are my lost hero. Cant help but to think am I your forgotten patriot. I wonder are we going to be allowed Each others company in Valhalla. Are we going to be happily ever after? Its best to have loved and lost Than to never have loved at all It makes one think......... Is it really?

Broken Current mood: crushed Category: Life For those of you who know whats going on in mylife, know that i just keep fuckin up. Also yall know that i currently have almost no self worth. But i really want to thank a good friend of mine Amy for showing me this song, it made me feel better about myself and there is one other person that i have in mind who needs to see it. Now im sure that there are others that this will impact and help. Its a very powerful song, so please read the lyrics and listen to the song. Once again thank you Amy. It has helped me a lot. LINDSEY HAUN LYRICS "Broken" Wake up to a Sunny Day Not a cloud up in the sky And then it starts to rain My defenses hit the ground And they shatter all around So open and exposed But I found strength in the struggle Face to face with my troubles When you're broken In a Million little pieces And your tryin' But you can't hold on any more Every tear falls down for a reason Don't you stop believin' in your self When you're broken Little girl don't be so blue I know what you're going through Don't let it beat you up Hittin' walls and gettin' scars Only makes you who you are Only makes you who you are No matter how much your heart is aching There is beauty in the breaking Yeah When you're broken In a Million little pieces And your tryin' But you can't hold on any more Every tear falls down for a reason Don't you stop believin' in your self When you're broken Better days are gonna find you once again Every piece will find it's place When you're broken When you're broken When you're broken In a Million little pieces And your tryin' But you can't hold on any more Every tear falls down for a reason Don't you stop believin' in your self When you're broken Oh When you're broken When you're broken When you're broken

i have loved you the best that i know how....... and will always love you........ goodbye my butterfly....... goodbye spread your wings and fly...... "Goodbye My Lover" Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. [x2] Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I am a dreamer and when i wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. [x2] Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bare my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

"If it wasn't for the innocents" Sitting here in fear that the darkness is to powerful, how much longer can it be held at bay. It’s so close to taking over. The battle is exhausting. How much more do I have left to give.... The battle must rage on, there are innocents that must be forever protected. So now I must battle I must fight even though Im completely exhausted. Can’t even pick up My arms anymore but I must move forward. The darkness that is knockin at the door is threatening to break thru, oh god give the strength to keep it all away, and to protect those who don’t deserve it. Oh God give me the strength....... If it wasn’t for the innocents would it be worth the fight would it be worth the stress, worth the grey hairs, the pain? If it wasn’t for the innocents would I have givin up a long time ago? Oh God give me the strength…….