Nikki's blog: "My Life"

Okay so practice went well today. Just tomorrow is the big day I get to graduate High School. WOW! I am so nervous!!! My stomach is all blah. I got my cap and gown today at practice. It's gold yucky. LOL! So I wont be on tomorrow night:( Tomorrow is going to be crazy I have been invited to 2 parties and can't go because my mother want's me to be here for her lil party. Oh well... I'll put on a happy face and try to enjoy it. <3Nikki

Tomorrow is graduation practice at 9am. Then Thursday at 5:15pm I will have to practice one more time and at 6pm the real thing happens. I graduate high school! WOOT WOOT!!! Leave Some Comments if you'd like. Love:Nikki

It's offical!!! I am done with school now. I am done with school because with my cast and wheel chair there is no way I can get back to school. So the school is going to give me my exams and basically pass me. Which is lame I don't want someone to pass me because I am a "cripple" I want to pass on my own abilities. So I will go back just for graduation on May 24th. Hopefully this cast will be off by then and I can walk the green and graduate with my class of 2007. I dyed my hair today its herbal essance hair color number 44. LOL! I love herbal essance!

Prom is May 12! Although I am not going... I wanted to go, but I would have no one to go with and I already know it wouldn't be any fun, because my best friend would be busy making out with her boyfriend and my other friend wouldn't be aloud to talk to me because of her idiot boyfriend doesn't like me and I don't like him. My school princapal just tld the school over the annoucments that they can now bring someone over 21 but they have to talk to her first. The guy I wanted to bring is Mikey, but when I asked her she said no one over the age of 20. Now it doesn't really matter 'cause I can't go to prom in a cast and crutches and also a wheel chair. Mikey said he would take me to dinner on May 12 and we could come back to my place. Which will be really cool.

So the wheel chair guy came today and brought the legs for the wheel chair, but they don't lock. :( So he is getting me a brand new wheel chair with new legs for it too. So I wont be back in school until Tuesday. I hope I can go back to school soon. This sucks, I am bored and I want this cast off. I have to use crutches and big girls arent made for crutches. LOL! I cried today because I miss my friends and I can't do nothing on my own. I like to be independent, but I'm not so independent with a wheel chair and crutches. My mother yelled at me because she has to wait hand and foot on me. I said well sorry its not my fault I'm in this cast. I didn't mean to slip on a wet mat and then re injure my self in school. I hope this will all hurry up and get better really soon.

Well I went to my doctors appt. today and he gave me a cast. It's a white one. I wanted pink, LOL! O well... So I go back to school on Friday, because the wheel chair people forgot the legs to the wheel chair. LOL! Ditzy people... Anyway's this will be tons of fun. Wish me luck... LOL! <3Nikki

What would you do if you loved someone and you know for a fact that they don't love you? If you spend almost every weekend with this person and they were your first kiss,and the first person to touch you the way they did. Although they told you they don't love you, they just like you. What would you do and how would you feel? Need some advice, because my emotions are going on one crazy rollercoaster ride. THANK YOU! <3Nikki

My wheel chair came today the funny part was that the man forgot the legs for the wheel chair so I don't go back to school tomorrow. I haven't gone to my doctor's appt. yet. That's not until 3pm.

Alot of things have been going on lately. For example I just found out not that long ago that my mom has cancer. I am scared, but I have to be strong for her. It's hard, because I usually think of the bad even though I try not to. I lost my grandmother October 14, 2005 and I don't want to loose my mother too. Although my grandmother didn't die from cancer. It's still scary and heartbeaking. The people I love keep leaving and I don't know what I would do if my mother left me too. I guess only time will tell what will happen next. I just wish my mother could be better and not have all these problems she has now. If I could I would take all the problems she has and not let her suffer. Ever since she was 33 years old she has had MS and she has other problems along with that as well. I cant spell all of them, but I know they hurt her. My mom is a strong women and she fights her problems every day. My mom is definatley my HERO! She gives even though she may not have, she will help someone if they are in pain even if she is in more pain then them, she helps the homeless, gives animals a place to live, she always finds away to give money to those who need it, she listens to those who need to be listened to, and she loves with all her heart. My mom is a super mom! Ms. Cheryl Brittingham my mom and also my super hero. <3Nikki