Nikki's blog: "My Life"

Okay so it's been a while since I have been on fubar. I've missed alot on here, but alot has been happening for me as well.

I recently got engaged :) and mine and my fiance's wedding date is April 23, 2011. Very excited! I'm also planning on going to college in January.

My mother had neck surgery, alot of deaths has happened with in the past year and I got a new dog.

So alot has happened, but I summed it up and it seems alot less then what truley happened. That's an update for ya'll.

July 18th @ 1PM I will be going back up to Christiana for consultation about my Gastric Bypass Surgery. I already went to Chistiana for a seminar to learn about Gastric Bypass and the pro's and the con's that Gastric Bypass surgery will have. Now It's time to find out what other doctor's I will need to go see to make sure I am 100% A Okay for this surgery. :)

I'm going to be getting Gastric Bypass Surgery. First I have to get test done to make sure I will be okay for it and also I have to get blood work done to see if I have Cushings Syndrome. I am really looking forward to finally getting rid of this weight. This surgery is manily for health reasons not to look good 'cause I know I look good with or without the surgery. If you don't know what Gastric Bypass Surgery is or Cushings Syndrome is here are the deffintions. Gastric Bypass Surgery: "Gastric bypass surgery makes the stomach smaller and allows food to bypass part of the small intestine. You will feel full more quickly than when your stomach was its original size, which reduces the amount of food you eat and thus the calories consumed. Bypassing part of the intestine also results in fewer calories being absorbed. This leads to weight loss." - http://www.webmd.com/diet/weight-loss-surgery/gastric-bypass Cushings Disease: "Cushing's syndrome is a rare disorder that develops when the body is exposed to too much of the hormone cortisol. Cushing's syndrome is also known as hypercortisolism." - http://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/cushings-syndrome-topic-overview

Sometimes I wanna get away to some place, but I don't want to stay to long. Anywere is good enough. Sometimes I just want to disapear, sometimes I feel so alone. I'm gonna crash and burn. I just need to get away, but not for to long. Most of that is The Veronicas lyrics to Hook Me Up, but that is also how I feel. Latley I just want to get away, but I don't want to be gone forever. The Veronicas "Hook Me Up" (music video) - http://youtube.com/watch?v=ubxZXEc6pZw

I just found out some information about my father. Those that know me. Know that I have daddy issues to the point that I hate him. Anyways I found out my father has cancer and is dying. I kinda feel bad, but not really. He is moving back down here to Delaware with his sister. His last dying wish is to see me. I truly don't want to see him. He had all them years to see me, but it takes him to get cancer and die to see me. Yes I know its heartless of me, but I have only seen him 3 times in my whole entire life time. Which is only 18 years. I know I should care, but I see no point in doing so. I want nothing to do with him. To me he is just a man I have to call father because he is the sperm donater and nothing more. A real father is someone who is there for the child no matter what even if the parent's seperate. Leave a comment Thanks -- Nikki

2 more days until I get my tattoo. I am so happy! This is what my tattoo is going to be except it is going to be done in blackwork. Their will be picture's and I will put them on here. Promise! <3Nikki

Oh yeah I so did it. I got my diploma and I am out of High School. Now what do I do?? LOL!!! Besides get a job... I'm not going to college. For many different reasons. But who cares for right now I am on an offical break from the school life. I just need a break from life it's self. Only if that was possible. LOL! So much is going on. I am going to get my tattoo June 2nd. YAY!!! I will take a picture for everyone to see. <3Nikki