AnGeL fRoM yOuR nIgHtMaRe's blog: "MY LIFE"

SORRY EVERYONE MY LIFE IS VERY SHITTY RIGHT NOW , MY FATHER PASSED AWAY BACK IN 2001 AND MY MOTHER JUST HAD A STROKE AND LOST THE USE OF HER LEFT HAND , MY OLDER SISTER IS GOING TO COLLEGE AND HAS 4 CHILDREN OF HER OWN AND HER HUSBAND IS WORKING A SHITTY JOB THEY ARE SO BROKE THEY DON'T NO WHAT THEY ARE GONNA DO FOR CHRISTMAS , MY YOUNGER SISTER LOST HER CHILDREN IN THE BEGGING OF THE SUMMER AND CAN'T GET THEM BACK , MY GRANDMOTHER THE LAST OF MY GRAND PARENTS IS IN THE HOSPITAL 3 OPERATIONS IN 2 WEEKS AND THEY CAN'T DO ANYTHING MORE FOR HER , HER LUNGS ARE FILLING UP WITH FLUID AND HER BODY IS SHUTTING DOWN AT THE AGE OF 76 , WELL IF I DON'T SEE YA FOR AWHILE YOU WILL KNOW WHY ... OK SORRY I HAD TO GET THAT OUT

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom. Send this to someone who you think is a special Mom. I just did..

The tears, they fall unfettered and pure Pouring out pain that nothing can cure Tumbling, cascading like the waterfall The vivid mark of agony's call Those salty drops of feminine curse Trapped under weight, day by day growing worse No one to catch them, no one to see No one else lost in this hell-hole but me Screaming in terror at the walls, closing in Dropping to my knees; my head starts to spin Feeling the rage within growing strong What in the hell have I done that's so wrong? The quickness of breath and the tightness of chest I have endured through it all; gave it my best Fighting needlessly, years upon years Left in the clutches of multiple fears. Fears instilled with the greatest of care To cause me to snap; my soul to lay bare Stuck inside this glass house of mine I stare out at a world that could be just fine Sighing, i realize it will never be me Form this bondage I can't be set free Held tight in the grasp of anger and hate Painfully avoiding the view of my fate Hearing the heart in my breast tear once more I shudder to think of those who came before Pressing the steel to my flesh, I push with a shout I sit, no more tears, as my life force flows out.

READ THIS. LET IT REALLY SINK IN. THEN CHOOSE. John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?" He replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood." Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life. "Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested. "Yes, it is," he said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood! . You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life." I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back. I saw him about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," he replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die. I chose to live." "Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked. He continued, "..the paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action." "What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said John. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity'." Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead." He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday. You have two choices now: 1 . Delete this. 2. Forward it to the people you care about. You know the choice I made. Smile, it could be contagious!!!!!!!

One Flaw In Women By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." "But I won't," the Lord protested.< BR>"I am close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days." The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think,she will be able to reason and negotiate." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing." And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give. HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

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SORRY EVERYONE MY LIFE IS VERY SHITTY RIGHT NOW , MY FATHER PASSED AWAY BACK IN 2001 AND MY MOTHER JUST HAD A STROKE AND LOST THE USE OF HER LEFT HAND , MY OLDER SISTER IS GOING TO COLLEGE AND HAS 4 CHILDREN OF HER OWN AND HER HUSBAND IS WORKING A SHITTY JOB THEY ARE SO BROKE THEY DON'T NO WHAT THEY ARE GONNA DO FOR CHRISTMAS , MY YOUNGER SITER LOST HER CHILDREN IN THE BEGGING OF THE SUMMER AND CAN'T GET THEM BACK , MY GRANDMOTHER THE LAST OF MY GRAND PARENTS IS IN THE HOSPITAL 3 OPERATIONS IN 2 WEEKS AND THEY CAN'T DO ANYTHING MORE FOR HER , HER LUNGS ARE FILLING UP WITH FLUID AND HER BODY IS SHUTTING DOWN AT THE AGE OF 76 , WELL IF I DON'T SEE YA FOR AWHILE YOU WILL KNOW WHY ... OK SORRY I HAD TO GET THAT OUT