Time has moved on and I still need to make those changes as for as getting a job and/or money to stabilize my situation. I feel that my health is not going in a positive direction. Because I don't have insurance I am hoping and praying I don't get real sick, lately though I have been having chest pains and tightning of my chest muscles on the right side. Now I am an avid coffee drinker; I don't get much sleep cause I am on this computer searching for an answer all hours of the night and early morning. right now it is 12:01 am at night but I must do something about my situation, what good is sleep if it has not helped me regain some respect for myself. I have a great son 13yrs. old and deserves some things I can't afford to give him. One thing I wanted to give him is his own room with his own stuff. I think that would give some peace of mind. He worries about too many things for a kid his age. In the neighborhood we live in makes it hard to find good friends for him and his sister. I never knew how important the role of good friends would play in the life of a child. I am not perfect but I try my best to be good father to my son, but it hurts when he says Dad I want this game system it so cool. I know it is just for fun but he deserves to have it cause he been doing well in school, very frequent I am hearing something new he has done and how proud the teachers thinks he is, exellence awards; attendance awards others that points to how well he gets along with others and helps others to. When it comes to achievments his training wheels came off long ago without much help from his parents except from the begining. I am trying to go back to school cause I need to and cause I need to be an example of what I teach about how important school is especially learning not to give up.
