the longest relationship ive ever had is 4 1/2 years
it ended on Jan. 7th, 2005
well what you need to know is that i have a son
whos name is Matthew Randell Ivey
now i know for a fact that there is noone on myspace that can tell you about it, nor is there any information on my page that can fill you in on this info
he would be 3 this november, his life was taken at birth
he had a hole in his heart, that wasnt known about, and there was nothing tha could be done to help him
well, his mother and i continued ofcourse to be together till last Jan.
i was working at Boeing at the time, as a security gaurd, working 3rd shift
she was and still goes to una
while i was working new years eve, she went to a frat party and had sex with some guy, who i have no idea of the identity of, and dont really care
because i was always, it seemed at the time, at work, i didnt see her again untill the 7th
i brought her lunch, we ate, then went back to her dorm room
well, having been together for 4 1/2 years, and on the edge me asking the question in a few days, we had sex, after we were finished some time later, she starts telling me everything that happend on new years eve, i didnt catch her, and noone else told me, she did
i asked why? out of mind i asked why? she proceeds to inform me because i had a hole in my heart when i was born, it was the same reason he son wasnt alive, and that i robbed her of the blessing of being a mother
and she wanted to be a mother bad enough, though not with me, she thought shed do the next best thing and have one anyways without my help
but she still wanted to be with me
so she tells me tha everything should be fine, because" she didnt enjoy it, and it didnt feel good!!"
after that she wants to have sex again
at about 3:25 pm, Jan 7th, 2005, i walked out of her una dorm room in boxer-briefs, army boots, and my hat, carrying everything else, to my truck and havent seen or talked to her since
