What is freedom,
that is the question that I ask,
Is it when you put on the clothes you want to where for that day,
Is it being able to show the love that you have for someone in everyway
Does it involve being able to go and eat when you want to eat,
Is it like when your able to drive you car down the street,
When your able to hug and kiss the ones you love,
Is that freedom when push comes to shove,
I wonder why when I lay asleep at night,
When I wonder why i was handed down this so called life,
I mean I feel nothing but pain deep in my heart,
It always feels like my worlds being torn apart,
I struggle and fight to live the life I live everyday
Yet I cant because someone took away that right to live my way,
I dont ask much, I dont ask for money or material things,
All I want is the happiness my life use to bring,
Everyone tries so hard to reach to my heart and help heal,
Though they hit a steel wall everytime because of the way i feel,
I have given to many and asked nothing in return,
I just wanted to live my life to love, care and learn,
Yes I'm able to lay my head down at night in my own bed,
Yet it feels like I have to sleep when im told to sleep instead,
Insomnia has almost take complete control over me,
When I try to sleep at night and dream I still dream of not being free,
Whether I have my own home, my own phone or my own car,
I am so close to a new beginning yet so away so far,
It seems like everywhere i turn its a new rule,
Something else I cant say or another place I cant go to,
I dont have control of this life it feels so true,
I have do to every little thing im told to do,
Not meaning by my family or friends because that would be fine,
Instead I have to walk that straight and narrow fine line,
What do you do when you have so much pain built up inside,
Having no one to turn to or not even a place to hide,
I just wanna cry my heart out to the world just to let them know,
That I'm broken and bleeding inside my mind, heart and soul,
I love my friends and i love my family so much its true,
Not even I though can explain the pain that I feel or go through,
So I will sit in my little corner of darkness all by myself,
Never being able to ask family,friends or loved ones to help,
I am trapt inside a body that just wants released,
Just so i can have that freedom back that was taken from me,
This is my life this is how I feel,
This shows you in alot of ways just what is real,
Ask any question you want about this and I will tell you the truth,
Just so you know each and everyone of you are special to me to,
I know your there and I trully thank you for that,
Now back to my shadows of darkness I will go to just remember now matter what I love you all so always remember that.
Written by:Lord Lestat aka Mike P.
