I no longer feel human. I see beauty, greed, hate, love, anger, but I can never see me. I went to the hospital today to see a girl I work with and her baby she had on the 15th. He's a cute baby boy, but it hurt me so much on the inside. I want my own family, well first I need a MAN !! I am sick of finding a guy I like and find out, hey HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND or HEY HE'S MARRIED. I thought my ex-boyfriends loved, boy was I mistaken BIG TIME !! They only wanted me for sex, a place to stay, my very little money, and my vehicle. I have been single for three years, I should say my whole life since my ex-boyfriends never loved me, I thought I was doing myself a favor by being single. Then I see all these newborns, lovers, old married couples, newly weds. I get tore up inside. What am I doing wrong ?? I never show myself as being desperate, I act natural. I will never change who I am to find a guy, if a guy can't love me for who I am he's not worth my time. Out of the mist flies a beautiful butterfly, flying so free nothing weighing her down. Oh how I wish it could be me, to fly so free on the air of a breeze.
