Ditte Never expect anything from anyone...'s blog: "My life atm"

Today is noon, the 19th of July, 8 days left to a new era of paradisic feelings begins.(the new Pokémon Diamond is comming to Denmark, to make old Pokémonfans very happy...) The family branch from Jutland went home again to reopen their inn, so now we are me, granny, dad and my psychotic cousin (the 18 year old)left... It feels really good, because now I don't have to share room with dad anymore... Yesterday dad found out I was crying after the lights went out and we talked most of the night. Mostly about my mom, but also that I'm afraid of the dark because of a trauma I had as a child. I wont tell about that now... Today me and dad went out to look at some stuff for his kitchen in his own house on Lolland. He's going to install it today so he will be gone until tonight, wich is kind of bad, because then I have to nurse for my cousin whom I hate because she should have been able to take care of herself now (like going to the bathroom herself, and be able to pee without spilling on the floor <.< It's really annoying because I didn't choose to be a nanny for her...) Tomorrow I'm going to a conversation about my (hopefully) new job to my (hopefully) new boss who is so cool and I hope it's gonna work out... My mood... Baddddd... But better than the other day... (apparently the blog I posted the other day is deleted for some reason I don't know why but I know I posted it) I hope I'll be better tomorrow, but I doubt it... Vacation with MY family is three times as hard of a noral day at HTX wich is like the highest level of hardness in the different subjects from 8 in the morning to 5 in the evening... You can pretty much tell I hate my family alot... Perfectionists... Anyway... This is it for now...

It's pretty hard to begin... Oh well... Today is the 14th of July, and I'm on vacation with dad in granny's house... Today me and dad went to minirace with sum people from his Ford Capri fanclub... It was really fun, but when we were drivving alone, I came in on 8th place out of 8... When we played on teams on two, me and Søren came on the 2nd place, so it was okay after all... It was the first time I ever tried anything like that, and the adrenaline rush is so great... Anyway.... For a couple of weeks ago my ex contacted me and started yelling at me for some reason... I don't like him, I shouldnt have been with him at the first place, since he is a manhumanistic psycho who doesnt feel anything at all except anger and despise... At least he ain't gonna attack me again, because I agreed with his mother that they should sell his computer, and he doesn't know my adress and don't remember where I live... I'm glad and feel lucky that I only have a few exes to yell at me... It's not my turn to die yet if it escelates... At the moment me and Nanna watches alot of stuff that is called Yaoi... Almost anime porn... ALMOST... Anyway, we enjoy a laugh, I only posted pics that are from my favourite animes, so just ask me about the persons if you have questions... Hehe... Anyway... On with my life... The drawings I draw are mostly the way I look at my feelings, such as sorrow and anger, wich my nickname indicates... I'm going to post them when I come home from dad's house... It's going to be so hectic next week, because we get visit from Jutland... My uncle, his Thai wife, and their pest of a 9 year old kid... So that's gonna be fun... We are going to visit some amusement parks, if the weather is okay... Overall mood rating: At the moment I am really sensitive to mood changes... One minute I can be happy and hyper, the next I can be gloomy and suicidal... Please understand... Anyway, this is it for now... Have a great time and enjoy yourself... I will try too...