words the old and the new nothing can exspress the sorrow the heartache. everything that holds dear to me. my daughter...i wish the best and i hope she will still love her father i will not be able to see her for i am far away in another state not seeing my daughter that is worst than any physical pain i can think of nothing can measure up to it. death is nothing but a pine needle on a pine tree nothing in my life all the beatings all the hardships all of it could never measure up to a father not being able to see his child is only child. i love my daughter more than life i wish i could see her grow up and see her smiles and comfort her when she frowns.. but i will not be able to anymore.... not for a long time i will not be able to see her all i have to see her with is her pictures i have of her now and then. i wish i could see her my heart aches not seeing her her voice and her cuteness and how she called me daddy... it make my heart melt each time she was a daddies girl i hope she will still be until we meet again i hope that she will still love me and i hope she will forgive me for not being there for her when she needed me....i hope i can still be a father to her and tell her and show her all the things that a father should do with his daughter like going fishing,,, going to see her play in the play or something that she is in. daddy misses you very much and i love you so very much i wish i could hold you and tell you everything will be alright maybe one day i will be able to say those things.. but for now i wait for that day... that day when i can come running to you and hold you and squeeze you in my arms... i know i will cry and i will admit it to... missouri back where there is family anyplace would be better than here hopfully one day she will meet her grandparents my mother and my father and all her cousins and the rest of the family my side.... hopfully i will still be here for that day... my days grow thin as my mind grows old.... one day...one day.... is all i wish....one day to be with my lil one so we could have the time of our lifes
