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i should've known from the beginning that it wasn't going to work. i mean, i met the girl after i posted a fucking ad on craigslist for fucks sakes!
anyway, she replied to my personal, and everything seemed so perfect. that should have been my first indication.
it starts off with typical conversation, and after a few days of getting to know each other it becomes phone sex.
well, you see, over the 2 months - almost exactly - that we were 'dating', she never once came to see me, nor would she 'allow' me to go visit her. she lives north of great falls, and i live in billings.
at first it was 'i got sick and had to go to the doctor' after spending 3 days being unable to get in touch with her. the very next weekend it was 'my dad fell down the stairs and has to have surgery', follow that up with 'i got in an accident, my car is in the shop', and subsequently 'meet me at the airport my flight arrives at 8' only to be stood up, again.
this goes on for 2 straight months!
every other day almost she says 'i'm coming today' and then i would be the nice guy, sit around patiently all day without calling so as not to be a pain in the ass, and 2-3 days later finally giving up, calling her and having to ask what the deal is!
this girl proposed to me. asked me to move in with her. and continued to represent like that is what she wanted of me, all the while standing me up, blowing me off, or just flat out ignoring me.
about 2 weeks ago, i'm on the phone with her before i open my store for the day, and she says 'i'm going to see a psychiatrist, my parents are driving me nuts and i can't take it anymore... i love you i'll call you later' and i fully expect to hear from her within a day or 3. i didn't even try to call for like, 4 days. the weekend rolls around, and our anniversary is coming up (i am a big sappy romantic - sorry) so i start thinking about what we could maybe do if she managed to get away from all the bullshit going on around her. i call her up, someone other than her answers (also not uncommon, her parents were living in her house though they have their own house on the other side of the state - they routinely blocked my calls), i ask for her, and get hung up on. i figured it might've been a disconnect, her phone would drop calls all the time when we would be having a phone sex session or whatever. fuck it, i'll call back in an hour or so. well, what do you know, same result! then i get a billy mays INSTANT MESSAGE on msn, and she is yelling (all caps) at me to stop calling and to leave her alone....
i'm heartbroken at this point. total tears and all that. have no idea what happened from the last time i talked to her until that point, but suffice to say, i am totally confused and depressed about the whole thing.
i'm not really sure where my life will go from here. this has happened, in similar fashion, 2 times in less than a year now. i'm not even sure i'm 'boyfriend' material after what i've gone through recently in relationships. the whole thing has made me feel slightly insecure about myself.
i gotta pick my shit up, dust myself off, and get back on the horse, right?
well, my summer has more or less sucked. fingers crossed that things pick up before it's over.
