DJxDEMONx's blog: "My heart"

To say Love is easy is like saying changing the currents in the ocean is simple...The fact is love is hard..and is not easy at all.. your hart breaks thinking it will never love again...then one day something happens and theres that falling feeling..that floating feeling...that feeling that everything is ok when your with that love, and everything is better for a time... then once again something happens. and its hard to say what but the love isnt there any more...and your left all alone again... cold and bitter...you try to drown the pain with little things like alcohol and maybe drugs..but the thing is that the pain never goes away...its always there. and the next person your with has to try that much harder to get to your hart and break down the walls that you have built...for some they see the wall there and say its too much work...but there is one person out there that will come into your life and look at the wall and say you know what...it doesnt look that hard and i have a hammer or two laying around...and they get right to work.... hold on to that one person for they will be the best friend you will ever have.. every one in my life holds a special place in my hart, and they know it... but who has a special place in there heart for me??? no Love is not easy...Love is very hard..but for those determined enough to make it work....Love is pure.and wholesome and just right. This is for all the ppl out there on my friends list going threw tough times with a lover or a friend....everyone on my friends list should know by now that you all are dear people to me and that no matter what I will always be here for you...if you ever need an ear to listen a shoulder to cry on or a voice to laugh with you... I am here....that is my vow to every friend of mine...i love you all.. BabyGirl, Shanna, Jasmine Rose, Jocelyn LeDoux, and what ever else anyone knows me by.

To point out my flaws is nothing new...but to point out yours is a sin. You say Im nothing...when you yourself are nothing. But you bring me down to make yourself feel better...I place you on a petistal High above anything else...But you insist on telling me that im useless and mean nothing....my words have no meaning to you.. I want you to love me and you do nothing but laugh in my face..The pain is nothing new to me...I must enjoy it..for i cannot leave..I am your slave and you my master...The collar I wear belongs to you..

when your broken and find the rain falling down upon you pounding the memory of the hurt of leting someone go in to your head like a 9 pound hammer, and you cant tell the differance between tears and the rain, and all you can remember are the good times and the laughter you shared. and your heart cant stand the pain again. remember that the scars only make you who you are no matter how much your heart is breaking... when your broken into a million lil pices, and the tears come like rain and you think it will never end. do not stop beliving in yourself. and remember I will always be here a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, and loving arms to hold you till the pain stops. you have my word as a friend.

My heart is ... Is an open book waiting for the right reader to come and turn the pages of my soul, for found within this book are the secrets of my love. Come sit and talk for a while ask me questions and listen carefully for you might understand that within the cover of this beaten, battered, and crushed book lies a strong story line full of love,compassion, heart break, cheating,lust, longing, and wanting. So come and sit by my fire and turn the pages of my soul, IF you think you can. Ok. I wrote this as an answer to a bulletin survey question...but a friend of mine thought it was good enough to post in a bulletin of its own....Belive me when I say this I am flattered. so I thought if it was good enough to put in a bulletin by itself then it must have its own blog page...lol its a shanna original so please feel free to comment on it. let me know what you think.. It is my joy to know that my writings are enjoyed.