DJxDEMONx's blog: "Just a thought..."

I am a 31 year old single mother. I am currently working as a production sewer/machine opperator in a ballistic factory, making kevlar vests for the United states Army, Marines, and police departments around the country. I have chosen to go back to school because i have recently realized that i do not wish to spend the rest of my life thinking that I could have gone back to school to better my son's and my own way of living. My son is my reason and my driving force behind everything that I chose to do in my life.  I would like to show him that going to college is in his best interest than waiting 12 or 13 years as I have.  

With my job being contract work I live in fear from month to month not knowing if i will have a job when the contract that we are working on is done, and not knowing if we have another one to follow it. I want a career that is stable enough to provide a good life for my son as well as myself. I belive that continuing my education with Guilford College is the best way to accomplish that.  My high school years were extreamly tough for me.  

I was not an A student. To be completely honest in some classes I was lucky enough to pass with a D. I had a lot of trouble paying attention. I was diagnosed with Attention Defficit Disorder (ADD) long after I had graduated from high school. I realize a lot of my problems in school were due to this fact as well as the passing of my father right before I started high school and the passing of my mother my junior year of high school.  So my grades reflected my emotional state at the time. My mother not understanding fully what ADD was she never had me tested,

I am fully capable of comprehending what is put before me it may take going over it more than once but I do understand concepts.  I have been looking to continue my education for several years now, but with work and not knowing how to juggle everyday life with the added classes as well as homework it got pushed to the back burnner. I have recently realized that if I do not attain a higher education my life will always be as it is, struggling to make ends meet working in fear of a lay off. I have come to a point in my life where i have the opportunity and the support system in place to go back to school. My family is in full support of my returning to school. Even with all of my own personal doubts I know that this is the right thing to do. 

I am hoping with the support of the councling staff at Guilford College I can attain my degree in computing technology/information systems. The internet is something that has always interested me along with networking sites such as myspace and facebook. Altho I am looking forward to understanding more about them such as how they got their start. I am looking forward to learning how to design web pages. I browse the Net alot and am facinated by all the different designs and syles that can be used to make a web page appealing to the eyes. I hope that this explains my desire to return to school.. I want this for no one but myself and my son so that we may have a chance at a better life..

The Story of Two Lives A soldier commits physical abuse by beating his wife, she ends up in the hospital with life threatening injuries...her husband is taken by the MP's arrested, and all manner of things are done to him including reduction of pay and rank and worse dishonorable discharge THEN we talk about the civil courts.....The Fact that this Woman pleads for and begs that nothing happen to her husband as it ia ll her fault is ignored A Soldier commits emotional abuse to his wife by refusing to talk to her more than 3 Months, then via "dear Jane EMAIL from not him but a member of his command's email addy sent from Iraq, He tells her of the upcoming Divorce and refuses to speak to her at all this lack of communication on HIS part causes physical problems that are life threatening. This wife, you see had done everything possible to contact him and keep the lines open though to no avail even after some have told his command of the moral responsibility they have. Army still takes the stand .."as long as he is sending her Money and she has a valid ID Card we can't MAKE him talk to her" and will not budge to help but allows him to hide behind this creed of theirs... The First Wife dies of her injuries...her husband is put on trial for murder...the second wife her emotional injuries never go away and her physical ones only get worse til she feels like there is nothing for her and no amount of counseling will help she gives up and in her own way dies and then succeeds at suicide. Her Husband? he walks away as if nothing has happened Is Abuse not Abuse no matter what kind? When did there become a degree to being dead...is not one woman just as dead as the other? will not their children morn the same? why Will one Man go free and the other go to prison? Was One Woman's Love more than the other when they BOTH fought for the Men that they loved? Why does the Military allow this to happen? I know of BOTH these Women personally and they were both dear sweet women that loved their husbands with all their heart... they were not angels and neither were their husbands but where one now has the time to think on his deeds the other has gone on with his life and now his wife who loves him and cares for him is having the same problem with him... but she will not get help because like most women it is all her fault... I say it is not ALL her fault it is partially the Army's fault for implicating a rule that says they don't have to make the soldier talk to their family... the family that they claim to protect and are defending as part of the Country that they defend.