Ever since I was 12 I've been arounds babies. My sister had her first then. I spent alot of time taking care of her first 4 of 5 kids. I always had a special connection with them. I felt like they were my own. My older niece, my sister's second, was the one I was closest to because just shortly after I got married I had to care for her while she lived with me.
It's not the same as having my own daughter. Knowing she's my own and not anyone elses has made me feel like I'm worth something as a woman. don't get me wrong I am worth something as a woman, but this is the one awesome thing that women do to keep this world going, giving birth.
My daughter is 2 months and I just love watching her grow and learn. Learning to hold her head up, gain cotrol over her body so she controls it not just reflexes is so awesome. I love it when she smiles at me, especially for no reason. If I happen to glance her way when she smiles and starts to coo makes my heart melt. She is so adorable.
I didn't feel as much of a connection with my neices and nephews, but I enjoyed being with them in my teens. I also enjoyed being able to give them back lol. I wouldn't give my daughter up for the world.
