When people ask me what do I see in my future I tell them what I want to see. Not watt I really see because I would probably be locked up in the nut house. I tell them that I see myself being a nurse, a mom and a wife, all happily of course. But when I really think bout it, it all looks black, incomplete, empty, and lonely. It’s actually really depressing and scary when I think bout it long enough because I don’t know what it means. I don’t see myself being a nurse, having kids, or a husband. Really I don’t even see myself graduating college and that should be within the next 4 yrs. I often find my self wondering if it symbolizes the end for me?!? Darkness usually stands for death. So if my whole future looks black does that mean that the only thing in my future is death, before any of my dreams come true?!? I know that the only way to make my dreams come true is to believe in them...but its kind of hard to believe in them when everything looks black. For some strange reason I feel that it is out of my hands either way. Who knows what will become of me.
