MUY IZ's blog: "My Frustration Blog"

Have you ever had a day that was good, yet it was bad? I've been writing programs the past couple days for CNC with a 3D cad model.(the good part) I'm still fairly new at doing it so the past 2 days one of the guys was helping me do it. Well he wasn't there today. No biggie .. other people know how also. So I run in to a problem and ask this guy Joe a question.(the bad part) He answers me in a down right snotty sorta way and I swear he was almost snearing at me. I told him thanks and walked away and promptly started crying. Only because I know why he's acting like that. He has attitude because I've missed so much work do to having Fibroymyalgia. Of course he's never asked me whats wrong or how I'm doing. I know I shouldn't let him bother me, but it just frustrates me that no one understands or even cares to try. Yeah..... so thats been my day :/

So... I ask my new regular doctor who she would suggest to see. She tells me Dr. Syed which I'd all ready heard of from another fibro sufferer. So I call to see about setting up and appt. They say .. well she'll want copies of any doctors notes pertaining to the diagnoses and any blood work that had been done and she'll want to see any x-rays they've done. So I call my doctors office and they made me copies of the paper work. I'll run around getting the x-rays closer to the appt(which isn't till April 16th :( ) But my FMLA got denied at work because evidently I didn't get in enough hours last year to qualify. So now I'm screwed. Because if I can't work because I'm having too much pain... which I have been since I'm not sleeping well, then I have to get a doctors slip. And yesterday when I wanted to leave early my boss said he was told to have me go through medical. Now mind you I'm not upset with my boss he's a really great guy. I'm just totally frustrated and depressed from dealing with this ALL THE TIME. When I do manage to work a full day I'm wiped out when I get home and pretty much good for nothing. And its so hard because people don't understand fibro because its not an illness you can SEE. So I'm struggling every day to not just give up and try to stay in an ok mood and not just sit down and start crying and never stop! Ok if you've managed to read all this THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. *HUGZ*

Ok.. so I have fibromyalgia. I've been struggling with this for over a year. And when I say struggling.... its been a tough road all the way. First I basically diagnosed myself to my regular Dr after having troubles with different things for a long time. I read about fibro and everything just CLICKED. It was like OMG. So she started treating me and trying different meds(which isn't completely uncommon) what works with one fibro patient doesn't necessarily work for another. I had her put me on sickleave because I was having so much trouble. Sleeping, whole body feeling like you've been hit with a truck. Trouble with concentration and vision. Anyways she put me off for a month, and sent me to see a physical medicine doctor. So he extended my sickleave, and sent me to aqua therapy. In the mean time I had to deal with loan insurances ... etc. etc. Well my bitch of a doctor wouldn't feel out some of the papers because "she felt I could go back to work" So needless to say she is no longer my doctor. Then I continue to see the "specialist" and I use this term lightly. Ok so finally he prescribes me Ambien CR for the sleep problems.. GREAT!! and it helps. Well... when I go to refill the script the pharmacy tells me that my insurance won't pay. So I call the specialist office to have the doc ask my insurance for a review... hmmm he no longer works in that office and he has asked that his patients be turned over to the other doctor in that office. Nice huh? Ok... so she can't ask for the review because she's not the doctor that initially prescribed it. So when I see her, she decides to try a different medication. Yee fuckin haw. Well in the mean time I ask for her to fill out FMLA papers which covers my absences from work when I'm unable to work or excuses me to leave early when I can't handle a full day. No biggy right? Well they proceed to tell me she own't fill out FMLA papers because she feels if the person needs to miss work they can come in to see her and get a doctors note. (Can we say money hungry?) So I tell them..... no I don't need another appointment. Needless to say SHE is no longer my doctor either.