Though you are far away
I think of you everyday
Missing you, loving you
And wondering why you went away.
You brought to me much joy and happiness
Only to leave me with such sadness.
Confusion has set in
And no time had I to grieve
As I had to continue my toils
Through the long days and troubling nights.
The pain I feel you are spared
My tears spread like wildfires
The tears should be of happiness
Of fond memories
Instead they are of anger
Of care that had gone wrong
No caring Physicians
At the final hour
All they say was let it end
And calmly walked away
For 19 hours I did wait
Praying for a miracle
But no miracle came
As your life drifted away
Unnoticed by the world
Another life over
No big welcome
Only sad good-byes
The torment I have lived with
Embedded in my soul
Buried deep within me
Never to behold
Being told by some
Your life wasn’t real
Just because they
Don’t understand love.
I never got to hold you
A stab to my quick
A memory I will never have
Until with you I join.
My family, they did care
Understanding and wanting to support
To help me through this crisis
To help me survive.
It’s been twelve years since I saw you
Long, slow and painful has the time marched by
Wondering why your presence
Was demanded from on High.
The End
Brian Spitler
