I'm tired of being single. Very, very tired of being alone, and very scared to never know love again. My problem is I'm not a normal guy and I can't help but weat my fetishes and fantasies on my sleave like a badge. They are who I am, what I am, and they make me feel normal; they make me feel alive. Problem is, when I'm in an unknown social setting, I freeze up, feel terrified and find it hard to meet people. I worry that my fetish for nylons, stockings, pantyhose, lingerie, BDSM, and strap-ons will be too much. I'm 41, not getting any younger and don't want to have to give up who I am to be with someone else, but tired of being alone.