so, i'm at this place in my life where i feel like i need a change. i'm stuck in this continuous loop of nonproductivity, or at least i feel that way. i'm bored with what i have and what my life is. i do the same things everyday, and i feel like i'm getting nowhere. in all reality, i know this isn't true though. i mean, i go to college, i'm slowly, but surely getting that done....but i feel like there's no point to it. and again, i know that's not true, because "having a college education is the american dream", yeah, i know. some people would kill to have the opportunities that i have. i didn't even have to work hard to get here. maybe that's why i feel like it's all for nothing. everything has been given to me. i'm one of the most spoiled people that i know, but it's not like i try to be. my mom and future stepfather want the best for me, so they try their hardest to give me everything and anything i could possibly need, and sometimes more. they bought me a car, they're paying for me to go to school, i don't pay any bills. so, i work, and make money of my own, but it goes to stupid bad habits and other things that i don't need. maybe if they had made me pay bills, or buy my own car, then i'd be more disciplined and maybe want to do more in life. i dont know if this makes any sense to anyone that's reading this, but i really think it does. i need something else...