Darkened Angel's blog: "My Crazy Life :P"

I lay here dead to the world of lies and truth, For one does not know where lies and tuth begins any more, I fear the lose of all I hold dear only to find out what I hold dear is nothing but truth, Standing up for truth alone is never easy but who knows when you the will bring the lies home, When the world is filled with nothing but lies and colded hareted people I feel that I am out numbered, I begin to even wonder why I have a heart and why I care for the human race, The human race is a twisted web of truth and lies and no one can begain to untangle them, Once the world had structure and there was only truth and no lies but the first lie was told, Then another and another only to have the web start to tangle and now where does truth lye, So now just cut my wrists and black my eye cause you only believe the lies.

This is for every hour we have ever spent together: For every kiss, each embrace, and ever tear shed for one another. This is for ever precious moment we have created just by being together. For all the times we managed to work through our anger and our tears, for all the time I was distressed and you were patient. This is for ever time you were there when I need you. For all the personal sacrifices you have made for me, for all the times when you understood me, and for the support you have always given me. This is for all the beautiful moments of the love we have made and given to each other, you of all the tendness and love you have shown to me, of all the things you have done for me that have in time added up to be so great. Most of all this is for you from me. To show you just how special I believe you really are. This is from my heart to thank you for everything you have done for me. To let you know exactly how I fell about you, and for all the times I forget to tell you these things. This is to remind you that I will always love you.
Never for get to tell the ones you love that you do cause you never know when you will not have them around any more. I worte this for my best friend Patrick and now I must add another name too and you know who you are.

My beautiful baby girl was hit by my stepdad yesterday and was killed instantly. She was in Flordia with my parents until I could get here out to Kansas with me. She was such a great and wonderful child. See I can not have kids and I was there for her since day one so I feel as if my child just died. I love you Elvira Mistress Of the Hounds you will be greatly missed!!!!!!
Elvira and her fist litter born on 06-06-06

I see the wild horses running free like you and me. Free to be who they want to be, free from all the harm and hate. Free to run over here and then over there. You remain free and unfound until the day I come around. So e rome together and play together until the day came that you would not be teathered. The day came and it was time to choose being free or being with me. You looked at me with a lost look on your face and asking why things must change why can we not just run free and untaimed.My reply is that fences are being built every day and even the free will not run free any more. By: Sabrina AKA Me :)

The darkness consumes me,

I sit here in the dark and wait for answers,

Then I hear the answer I am looking for,

I hear a faucet wanting to be opened,

I reach for an object to open it with,

I sit and listen to the pulse behind the faucet,

The noise is pounding in my ears,

I hold the object to my facuet and open it,

The red water comes poring out and it makes me sane,

Sane and scarred I head in to the light once again.
By:Sabrina (AKA Me)

Darkness

As i lay in the basking darkness that is my life i

sigh with wakful dose the  air is cold the night

 is black and blue the sun shall rise no more

the moon will  stay in ones place blackness

 covers my  heart cying is a best friend

of mine  hurting bleeding death has

 always been there all around me no one

can hear me scream the scream of pain no

laughter fills the air no happiness falls

 around this god forsaken place i am

emotionless and hard inside but questions

fill my head like water fills an empty

space where does my life lead?

what is my destiny?

 am i wanted?

am i normal? and is suicide my normality? those questions haunt me like the demons of my past still do...

By: Unknown