I am writing this to who shall ever read this, and if i dont get any comments back than thats alright. Well I would like to start out by saying that I moved to Los Angeles to be closer to my child and get the Phuck out of the county i was living in. Yes i spelled the f word wrong and it was done on purpose. Well I moved here and iam currently Living w/my good and closet friend/Hair Stylists Brother. I haven't seen Kyle my son yet, but and i have talked an I havent told him that iam only 1hour away if that from him :) Yeah i know thats sounds kinds mean but hey when he finds out that iam closer to him, he will be so happy as for I am. I am here in whole new world where i don't know anyone from my past, and to me that is a relief. I have done some terrible things in my life an Some iam not proud of and wish i could change some of them. But i believe that i have done enough since my past that KARMA has cashed in all my negative chips so to speak. My goal being here in L A is to be closer to my son, and to start a new life; find a new girlfriend or woman. For i am single as of right now, but with my Dead sexy self an positive feelings. I will not be once i start lookig or dating again. I know the dead sexy was a bit much, but hey i dont think im ugly or anything. I have had only two serious long relationships since my son Kyles mother an i split up in mar. 97' an needless to say it was learning experience, an i will never regreat it either. Now aim 36ys old an i dont need anymore High School drama shit either. What i mean is my last exx came over one night an we "MADE LOVE" if you will as of January 18th 07' And the next day after a year being together she got up after the lovemaking an left and, when i called her to see why. Her phone was disconnected. I finially got a hold of her and said wht the hell. She really hasnt or had a excuse to why we ended it. I believe it was because it was because how depreesd i was by not seeing my son. I was living 4 1/2 hours away from him, and any parent that reads this will know the pain i was going through only seeing him on certain Holidays or summer vaaction. Iam thankful for getting to see him period. Now that i amliving closer to him, my depression has sub sided an Iam doing much, much better. I have my positive feelings and out look on life like i had before. Iam wanting a girl that will understand tht my child comes before her, weather we are married or even if he isn't withme 24/7. Kyle Mother was afraid that i would have girls come in an go in my life and Kyle didn't doesn't deserve that type of behavior from me. Iam proud to say that he hasn't gotten attached to any of the girls i have dated since his mother an i split up. Its a creasent moon this evening, and to me thats when you go out and say all the things you want and need in your life and try to accomplish them by the next moon is full. And on a beautiful night like tonight it would have been nice to have an woman beside me watching the tide roll in an crash against the rocks or over our feet, and feel the ocean breeze run through or hair. My writing skills have decreased over the years and for the first time in years i feel like i have something positive to say to some one or to the WORLD. I have met a few people here on mypace and it has been great, til all the spam and spywear that comes with it; make umbareable. When it infects your machine. I know a girl not personally, back in my county i lived in an we met on myspace. We never met, and one day before i left she saw me getting chinese food. She wasn't sure if it was me or not, so when she got home she IM me to see if it were. I told her, why yes crystal aka TranceAngel, it was i. We still talk every now and than. Well i better stop for now keep a look out for some blogs from me for now Iam writing again, and if anyone has anything to say to me e-mail me. Til thanks to all my friends here on myspace and my REAL TRUE friends outside of myspace. til than everyone be safe and blessed be
Peace,
Dreammer
