This will probobly be the most honest and open blog i will ever post. I don't even know why i'm posting it here but for the fact that i just had an epiphany and needed to vent..
So i woke up around 11:15 this morning a tad bit cumbersome *see..hung over* but generally happy. I immediatly sign on to myspace where Journey's Don't Stop Believing is blaring at my senses waking me up..along with the uber ginormous glass of ice water i'm chugging..
Either i have way too energy..i'm still drunk..or i'm surpemly bored..i opt for all three. But, I turn my cam press record and start dancing *yes i have proof* Half way thru the second song *Dj Sammy's-Heaven* I realize i don't have a mic on my laptop and i probobly look to an outside viewer *like anyone would see it* that i'm just having a 3 min long seizure....
Noting my mistake i sit down and continue to record myself just being a dork *i think that's the technical term* and sing to the cam...
Then for some way out there reason which i still haven't figured out..i click to Averil Leveigne..not even really a fan...click on the song Keep Holding on..
I'm immediatly choking up..almost sobbing..and wondering to myself..
Fuck i know i have to call the Dr back at 3:30 but god dammit i'm petrified and i don't think i can. I don't want to know what he had to tell me the other night when he left a msg to discuss a *problem* he found with my tests
The point? It never fails..at least with me..how music can bring up the most primal feelinge you're trying to supress and don't even realize..
