Life is a weird thing when you really sit down and think about it. I don't just mean you are bored one day and skim the idea for a minute before your random thoughts lead you somewhere else. I mean when you sit down and actually think about it. I guess I have a lot of time on my hands because I seem to do it a lot. And isn't that what a blog is for? To write out your thoughts?
I have always found it easier to be able to say something or write it down to further explore a thought. Like I said before, our thoughts are generally pretty random and it is sometimes hard to follow one train of thoughts.
So here I am sitting in my room writing in a blog. Lots of questions come to mind. Will anyone read this? Will they like it? Will I like it when I look back and realize what was going on through my mind a week ago, a month ago, a year ago. Wow a year, that would be a very long time. Or is it? In the vast of our lives, the older we get the faster our lives go. So wouldn't that mean each day that goes by, the faster it will seem that the next one will come?
So like I said before... life. It is an interesting topic that I generally find myself thinking about. What will become of my life and what kind of people will be in it? There are just so many questions and so many new ones every time something happens. A lot of questions get answered too. Like, am I going to lose my virginity before it becomes legal for me? Nope. I still haven't lost it and I am legal now. But there are other questions that remain a mystery to me right now that even if I was told the answer I don't think I would like to hear it very much. Like when and how am I going to die. My whole life would be spent wondering what I will do in my final days.That is no way to life a life if you ask me. I want to go through my life living the best that I can without ever looking back on any decision that I make. I believe that every thing you do is done for a reason and even if you mess up on something, you were meant to mess up. I don't believe in destiny, at least not a predictable one, but I don't really think there ever really was a wrong choice. I think every choice has benefits and downfalls and even though some seem worse that others, that is just appearance. For example, my parents had me. But now they are divorced. Was it a mistake they got married? Hell no. Or else I would not be alive. I would never had done all the things I have done with my life and hope to do in the future. Even if I do make mistakes, the outcome will affect not only me but the world.
It makes me sad sometimes when people get so bent out of shape about the most simplest things. I am just such a laid back person that it really does amaze me how wrapped up they are in little things.
But I will leave on that note.
If you did read this, thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts. Maybe I will get around to reading some of yours :P
Don't worry, it makes your face look old ;)
The Best!
