Damn! I hate this post brake-up crap. I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about it, and it's making me nuts. I know that I deserve far better than I ever got from my ex, yet, part of me wants her back. Part of me wants to try again, with her giving me the honest to God chance she never gave me, then if it doesn't work out, split. I guess I want things to be back the way they were because she left me for someone else reinforcing the feelings I had that no matter what I did or didn't do, that I'd never be good enough for her. It seems that my ex was always on the prowl for someone else. If not her ex, then the woman she finally left me for after having an online affair for months. The ex claims to really love me, but wasn't in love with me. I say if she really loved me then she would have moved out at least the first year of our 2 1/2 year realationship in stead of dragging things out like this and hurting me even more. Common sense tells me I was just being used, but my heart still hurts like hell because I was in love with her. I dunno, I just needed to really unload some of this crap.
