sweetninnocent's blog: "Mine"

I am tired of hurting, being sore, feeling all alone, having nobody. And one Guy I care about he is a Jerk and pisses me off. I am tired of the hospital. All I can do is cry.

If anyone missed me, I was back in the hospital. Glad to be home, but still not feeling the greatest.

Sun spots cast a glare in my eyes, sometimes i forget im alive, i feel it coming and i gotta get out of it's way, i hear them calling and i come cuz i cant dissobay, i should not listen and i shouldnt believe but i do, yes i do. he turns me on, he makes me real, i have to appologize for the way i feel, my life it seems has taken a turn, my name has to get returned, peel up our skin were going to burn what we were to the ground, fucking the fires and we'll spread all the ashes around, i wanna kill away the rest of whats left and i do. yes i do, he turns me on, he makes me real, i have to apologize for the way i feel, But nothing can stop me now, there is nothing to fear, and everything id ever want, is him inside of me

I can't belive November is almost here.. Where did October go??? It went so fast for me as I spent over half of it in the hospital.. You got to watch those coughs.. I just want this cough to go away.. Last night and today I really feel it. I know its the cold weather. I had a cough that turned into peumonia (hope I spelt that right) I had no engery (which I barley have any now) was dehryated... I spent over two weeks in the hospital.. There was fluid on my left lung and they had to drain it. I am not used to missing so much work.. That is how I live and now I have to wait for the short term disablity cheque's and who knows when those are going to come. I phoned yesterday and all I was told they are processing them. Well my rent is coming due.. What do I tell my landlord they are processing it. my head is spinning. And there is this guy and I dont know Peace