sitting here all alone...being sad wishing he would come back home....knowing he loves me but cant...y that is what i ask my self....y dont he just say the hell with it all....y cant we just go back to being us again...but knowing deep down inside that it will never be the same...i wish i could just go back a year....and not try the drug that fuck us up...and not be with that man that never cared in the first place....knowing all he cared about ws trying to get me hooked on that drug and wanted to use me for anything he could...y was i so dumb....i didnt i see it.....but maybe oneday i will be happy again...maybe not with him but with a man that will love me for and not what i can give him...i love him....and he knows it...but he just cant turn his back on that bitch and baby he is going to have....y was i so dumb....y couldnt i give the drug up?....y...that is what i ask myself everyday....y....
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i will love him until i die...and i hope he will do the same....
