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I woke up laughin @ myself this morning from the shit I did last nite..or tried to do. Let me start with saying that if any1 owns a BB, it's very hard to take a pic of yourself(my teen age daughter won't do ANYTHING, especially pics)...so my pics r from my cell, taken in a mirror. Ok, I promised a friend a would make a foot/toe salute for him, harmless enough I think. But, I wanted to be creative w/it...BIG MISTAKE!!! 1st of all, I had the bright idea of standing with my foot up by my face & the salute....are ya startin to see where this is goin? I didn't want to do it sitting or lying down as to not give any ideas of the whole "ankles by the ears" thing. So, I tried putting the salute between the toes, but it looked like I had toes missing besides bending the paper. Literally almost 10 pics later, I tried sitting....on my excercise ball. NOT a great idea. I tried everything, but I just couldn't get everything in the pic. Do you have any idea how hard it is to NOT show the "side" of ur foot, while holding a salute, leg up in the air(trying to make it look effortlessly sexy), get toes, face & salute all together & have the other hand free to "snap" the pic? I ended up writing the salute backwards to take in my mirror...let's just say that the best pic I got...my foot looked bigger than my head..roflmao. I tried, I really did. But, a bigfoot I am not. I woke up this morning still laughing at myself. So much for trying to be creative:P I'm gonna be 44yrs old in a cpl weeks & now my hip feels like I gave myself arthritis!! It's not even the leg I lifted...lmao. The neighbor downstairs probably thought I was drunk from all the "stomping" as I tried to catch myself from falling. Wtf was I thinking? Hope every1 gets a good laugh outta this, cuz I did. DO NOT ask me for a foot salute either:P |
This was a poem I wrote to my youngest daughter aka "the boss" during a very difficult time in our lives..plz get over the fact of the 1st line:P
To You, My Child
Here I sit, locked up in jail
I long to hear your voice
To hear you cal me "Mommy" again
Would make my heart rejoice
I'll send letters every week
I hope they make you smile
I want you to be happy
Cause I won't see you for a while
I long to take you in my arms
And hold you oh so tight
I want to say how sorry I am
I wish to make this right
I pray one day you'll forgive me
For bringing this to your life
I want you to know happiness
And live without this strife
My love for you will never end
And I just want you to know
You're my one and only girl
Even if it doesn't always show
Soon I will be free from here
Our lives to start anew
I'll never let a day go by
Without you knowing my love for you
Not that too many ppl will care or read this, but as 1 of my absolute best friends(sis)said once.."u just gotta let it out".
The top women in my family r there for a reason..the top 3 I've known, not for yrs, but many, many months. They keep me grounded & let me know I matter. They all know why I care & if any of them EVER needed anything, I'd be there in a heartbeat. I swear sometimes I wish I could live in 3 places @ once because they mean that much to me.
Now, my UhP family/friends..U all know who u r...for a lounge to actually give 2 craps about me, even when I haven't been doing my part for the lounge, means a lot to me. Now I know all about how some ppl feel about lounges, but for the loyal 1's there, including the owner, tyvm for being there for me.
I am not perfect, I have made mistakes & got caught up in the "drama" thing. I hate & am ashamed that I've said things in my status, that really just shows how much I can hurt when ppl r rude. I am not thick skinned, never have been & never will be. But to react the way I did was honestly out of pain from ppl I thought were my friends & stooped to a lvl I will never go to again.
No this is not my life, but I am a woman who met some wonderful ppl here..& this whole online thing is very new to me..wait, cuz I'm laughing at myself right now..
Sigh, I want very much to just have fun here & continue to meet good ppl. If I offend any1 along the way, I'm sorry..ya gotta ask me why cuz it's not on purpose & I'm not a mind reader. Maybe it's somethin simple. I've just had enuf of the drama already...lol, like it's gonna stop now:D
The ppl that do know me from here, I just want u to know, that honestly, when I think of how lucky I am to have u in my life, cuz yes, some of u do trickle into my r/l & r thought of frequently. It duz make me a lil teary eyed to think of unselfish & caring u have been with me. Thank you for that(h).
Hugs & kisses to you all (h)(h)(h)
For those that don't know me..& plz no sympathy. I have 2 tumors, non cancerous, that sit on my left optic nerve, located on the anterior pituitary gland. So, that's just a bit of my medical problems...but like I said, no sympathy, just want ppl to know why I log off quite a bit lately, the headaches really get to me. On a funny note, I have to wear bi focals...lmao.
As far as the fu, I tend to take my friends & family very seriously. I do get my feelings hurt @ times, so if u could keep this in mind, I'd appreciate it very, very much. I do not play games with ppl or "bust them" out. I am human tho & have @ times put somethin in my status, once. For that, I am very ashamed.
I know this is supposed to be a game, but for me, it takes me away from my real life at times, ya know. And I love to laugh, not at ppl, but at what they say sometimes.
Hope this lets u know a bit more about me...much love to my friends/family(h)
Sometimes I gotta just wonder, WTF is wrong with me? I know, I mean really know what I have to do. So why is it so easy to say what I need to do and not just do?! I know I'm a good person and would never hurt anyone intentionally. I don't play games, I try to be honest...although it's hard when u think it is gonna hurt someone. I don't know if it's because of lonliness that makes me get walked all over and let other ppl's lives seemingly put their problems right up there with my own...I honestly don't know. I do know that I'm sick and tired of ppl assuming they take advantage of me because I'm known for my kindness. I do not want to become an ass, but if I don't start, even with the small stuff, it'll bring me down. See, I said I know what needs to be done, but will I do it? I feel like a prisoner. Jeez, u'd think at my age I'd know to grow up already!
Both family and friendship are important to me. As a person with a big heart, why is it that people tend to take advantage of that? I truly feel that what comes around goes around. I don't wish bad things for others, even if they aren't my friends. People tell me that I need to get a "thicker" skin. To me, that's just changing who I am. I'll always be there for anyone, even more so to a friend. I never expect anything in return. Well, maybe just one thing, their friendship. Good friends are hard to find and when I find them, I will let them know everyday how much I love and appreciate their friendship.
I would come here more often, but to tell you the truth, I am absolutely confused on how to navigate this stuff. My 12 yr. old daughter can do more things on the computer than I can. How did that happen? I went to a club (is that what you call it)? once....and was totally lost. Since I'm missing a little bit please bear with me.
