Faking Insanity's blog: "Lyrics (When I can't write for myself)"

I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of shit Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

What's the deal with my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I led love down the drain There's the pitch, slow and straight All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero But I'm a zero Hungry nights once again Now it's getting unbelievable Cause I could not have it better But I just can't get no play From the girls all around As they search the night For someone to hold on to And just pass through Get your hands off the girl Can't you see that she belongs to me? And I don't appreciate this Excess company Though I can't satisfy All the needs she has And so she starts to wander Can you blame her? Tell me there's a logic out there Leading me to better prepare For the day that something really special might come Tell me there's some hope for me I don't want to be lonely For the rest of my days on the earth

Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting This distance, This dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings relief, And the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart For comfort, For solace (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away Mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing, Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication. I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down No fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over. To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication. The poetry that comes from the squaring off between, And the circling is worth it. Finding beauty in the dissonance. There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away. Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting I've done the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication. Cold, cold, cold, Cold silence has A tendency to Atrophy any Sense of compassion. Between supposed lovers Between supposed brothers. I know the pieces fit!

Tears Don't Fall Lets go With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading Would she hear me if I called her name Would she hold me, if she knew my shame There’s always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home The moments died, I hear no screaming The visions left inside me are slowly fading Would she hear me if I called her name Would she hold me if she knew my shame There’s always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home This battered room I’ve seen before The broken bones they heal no more, no more With my last breath I’m choking Will this ever end I’m hoping My world is over one more time Lets go Would she hear me if I called her name Would she hold me, if she knew my shame There’s always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall they crash around me Her conscious calls the guilty to come home All These Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me) Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen but we don't really know why If it's supposed to be like this Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss? Oh yeah Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears I'm not feeling this situation Run away, try to find that safe place you can't hide, It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me (me), Yeah (yeah) All these things I hate revolve around Me (me), Yeah (yeah) Just back off before I snap. Once more you tell those lies to me Why can't you just be straight up with honesty? When you say those things in my ear Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear? Oh yeah Wear your heart on your sleeve, make things hard to believe I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can't hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me (me), Yeah (yeah) All these things I hate revolve around Me (me), Yeah (yeah) Just back off before I snap and you'll See (see), Me (me) All these things I hate revolve around Me, me, yeah, yeah, Just back off before I snap Torn apart at the seams are my dreams to the tears I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can't hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me It's the best place to be when you're Me (me), Yeah (yeah) All these things I hate revolve around Me (me), Yeah (yeah) Just back off before I snap and you'll see Me (me), All these things I hate revolve around Me (me), Yeah (yeah) Just back off before I snap

Dreams faded I'm frightened Will I ever find the cure? Mistaken I'm waiting When I finally hit the floor I'm hurt and so wounded It's gonna tear my soul apart I'm lost in my heaven I finally found my way to escape Love's faded I'm haunted Will I finally find the cure? Mistaken I'm waiting Just for you I'm hurt and so wounded It's gonna tear my soul apart I'm lost in my heaven I finally found my way I'm hurt and so wounded It's gonna tear my soul apart I'm lost in my heaven I finally found my way to escape My way to escape My way to escape I'm hurt and so wounded It's gonna tear my soul apart I'm lost in my heaven I finally found my way I'm hurt and so wounded It's gonna tear my soul apart I'm lost in my heaven I finally found my way to escape Found my way to escape I'm lost in my heaven My heaven

I feel guilty My words are empty No signs to give you I don't have the time for you You say I'm heartless And you say I don't care I used to be there for you And you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed But so have you Guilty, I feel so Empty, you know how to make me feel I put a shield upon you I didn't mean to hurt you I would have only poisoned your mind Never meant to make you cry You've been so thoughtless I can see right through you You used to be there for me So don't you leave say goodbye Cause you have changed but so have I I never thought that the time and the distance Between us made you so much colder I'll carry the world on my shoulders

Wake in a sweat again Another day's been laid to waste In my disgrace Stuck in my head again Feels like I'll never leave this place There's no escape I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me I don't know what to take Thought I was focused but I'm scared I'm not prepared I hyperventilate Looking for help somehow somewhere And no one cares I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me Put me out of my misery Put me out of my misery Put me out of my Put me out of my fucking misery I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me

This revelation is the death of ignorance Tangled in a state of suffocation Slave to self righteousness Damnation is on your lips From sorrow to serenity, the truth is absolution, From sorrow to serenity, its on your head This is my last serenade I feel you as you fall away This is my last serenade From yourself you can't run away It's your choice, point the finger But it's on your head Your destination is a choice within yourself Will you rise or become a slave To self righteousness Open up your heart and gaze within

Bury Me Softly In This Womb I Give This Part Of Me For You Sand Rains Down And Here I Sit Holding Rare Flowers In A Tomb.....In Bloom Down In A Hole And I Don't Know If I Can Be Saved See My Heart I Decorate It Like A Grave You Don't Understand Who They Thought I Was Supposed To Be Look At Me Now A Man Who Won't Let Himself Be Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Losin' Control I'd Like To Fly But My Wings Have Been So Denied Down In A Hole And They've Put All The Stones In Their Place I've Eaten The Sun So My Tongue Has Been Burned Of The Taste I Have Been Guilty Of Kicking Myself In The Teeth I Will Speak No More Of My Feelings Beneath Oh I Want To Be Inside Of You Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Feelin' So Small Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Out Of Control I'd Like To Fly But My Wings Have Been So Denied