pepperlove's blog: "love"

i am writting this blog in a very depressed andgry state of mind.any one that can talk to me or help me to understand is greatly appreciated.. ok,i have been the type of person to always believe in love and want love in my life.i have always wanted to have a family and get married.thank the good god above all my wishes and prayers came true.i met the most wondrful woman in the world and my life was great.just when i thought it could not get any better she had my only child a beautiful little girl named jasmine.for 2 more years my life was great and my heart was full of happiness.on march 27,2006 my beautifull wife died in wal-mart from a heart attact at the age of 24.from that point until now my life has been shit,the only light that comforts my heart is my little girl.that is love and made from love.. i hate being single and i hate the dating seen.to hear a woman say they want a good man really pisses me off.to hear people that are not happy in there relationship pisses me off.people who have some one and do not appreciate the person pisses me off.how do you go from believing in love with all your heart to hating the thought of love??why is it that the people who would make a great partner for some one is single.why is it that the good people always hook up with ass holes at first?why when you are straight up and honest no one wants to give you the time of day,then when some one plays them the first thing out there mouth is where are all the good men or woman at...????life sucks and love is the best joke ever told... ...........................love and hate mixed with anger.....

i wrote a few mumms that i want to clear the air on right now.i love my daughter more than any thing in this world.i would never leave my baby for any woman and i would never do any thing to hurt her.what i was asking in my mumms and badly i want to add is.would you move to a different part of the country with ur child away from all that is normal to her??i am not going any where with out her and that never crossed my mind.to make a long story short.what i am asking is do i take my baby away from things she knows to a place that would be new to her.just to say it again,I AM WITH MY DAUGHTER ALWAYS..I AM NOT LEAVING HER FOR ANY REASON...

my life is getting back in order.i am happy again and i want to find that love that will heal my heart completely.i have some wonderful friends that has been there for me from day one. i have heard it put this way b4 and it is so true.friends are like a tree,some blow away like the leaves.some hang around for a while like the limbs,but the ones that are like the roots of a tree will be there forever..the friends i have are all like the roots..i love my friends...thanks

i am so lost and just do not understand why some peopele have to be in controll of every thing and every one around them..at what point in ur life do you break away and live ur life the way you want to live it??at what point do you stop letting another person controll ur happiness??at what point do you steo up and just say enough is enough and if this continues i will have to let you go???others can only controll you if you give them the ability to do so....think about that and ask ur self how long are you willing to live in fear and miss out on happiness because of some one elses problems....wil

i have met a young lady that is just every thing i hoped to meet.i enjoy our talks and just thinking of how it could be makes me happy.could this be the love i need in my life and in my heart.i hope that i also make her feel like some one special cause she has brought me alot of joy.love ,happiness,and joy is what i hope to find in this person.i must say that so far things are great and i hope it just gets better as time goes on ...for all who reads this just wish me luck and pray that all works out for me...wil

today has been the worst 4 th of july ever.i got robbed in EAST ST.LOUIS,IL.when i called 911 i was put on hold and when the police did come out they made me feel like i did some thing wrong...this world is really fucked up when a person tries to do right is accused of doing wrong and the criminals get away with all there wrong doings...i feel like all people should be able to carry guns if you do not have a record and truck drivers should be given special rights to protect them self from crime...after this i will be packing from here on out so if you see me on the road in my big green FFE truck honk if you feel me....wil

true love is some thing special that not all know about.well i have had true love and my love died march 27,06.life with out her is not the same but i do have a beautiful daughter that reminds me of how good love really is.if you look at my pics you will see my wife and see how happy we where together.nothing has change for me,i still love her and i think i always will.i do hope that one day i will find some one else to love.i am taking life one day at a time and my friends are special.well i hope that you all find true love and if you have then please value it...wil(pepperlove)