i've got this nasty little habit of telling people, some of which i even just met, "i love you". now mind you, it's not always so profound and forlorned. sometimes, when expressing it in writing, i even try to diffuse it by spelling it 'l-u-v' instead of 'l-o-v-e'. and more often than not, it's based more on admiration and respect than any romantic or physical attractions. Trouble is, i found people tend to freak out or begin to noticeably distance themselves when those words are spoken/written. what's up with that? what is so wrong or threatening with having genuine feelings for some one based on the observations made on how admirable and/or appealing they may be? do people honestly believe that to love a person automatically means desiring and lusting for them as well? there are all kinds of and ways you can actually love some one...and all be realistically genuine. i mean c'mon…when somebody says they "love" their dog, does that mean they want to have sex with them? (well…in most cases anyway?!) and people are always saying things like "i love skiing"…or swimming or playing softball/baseball. does that mean they plan on getting naked to do 'it'? (…hmmm ?)
in my opinion, i think we need to show and express what and how we feel about one another more frequently and openly, as long as it's done in a respectful and dignified manner.
you never know when a kind word or expression of affection may be exactly what a person may be needing and they may not even realize it themselves. it may effect the affect of that person for who knows how long in a positive and uplifting way. and what does it cost? …nothing!!
i don't have much of, if any, family that are actually relatives in my everyday life and haven't for at least the past 17 years. so i've created a 'family' for myself that consists of people that have touched me (no!! not like that…) …touched my heart in a way that makes me think of them as family. people who have filled the void of not having immediate so-called loved ones for comfort and support. they are as much, and in some ways, more family to me then anyone i could actually be related to by blood or birth. and the fact that any of them may be some of the most gorgeous, sexiest women walking the face of the earth is purely coincidental and what i consider an added bonus. and can i help it if i tend to relate better with females then I do males? i attribute it to the close, personal, healthy relationship i shared with my mom and younger sister growing up…as opposed to the distance i experienced from my dad and two older brothers. there was never but so much 'closeness' in our house but what was there seemed to exist more so between me, my mom and lil' sis. i just feel more comfortable talking and opening up to females than i ever did with guys. go figure…
so, if you are or become someone that i have or will inevitably say "i love you" to, don't panic! It does not mean I want to run off and get married or even have a sexual encounter with you. (well...maybe not immediately anyway ~ lol) i'm not confessing any deep intimate emotions or expecting a life long commitment. it doesn't even require you to reciprocate or otherwise express what or how you feel in return. all it means is that i have developed some genuine affection for you and have come to appreciate you in a very special way. all it means is that just telling you "i like you" no longer really encompasses the totality of how much you have grown to mean to me. all it means is that i have, at some point, begun to appreciate and thinking of you more as family as opposed to as just an associate or even as just a casual friend . that's all…
