MY LIFE AS I SEE IT NOW! FOR A LONG TIME I WAS JUST GOING THEW EACH DAY AND HOPING IT WAS NOT A DREAM! NOW I SEE WHAT WAS PASSING ME BY! FOR I LONG TIME I HAD NOE HOPE AND NO ONE TO GIDE ME THEW WHAT I WAS GOING THEW! ALL A LONG ALL I NEED TO DO WAS THINK ABOUT WHAT GOD WAS TEACHING ME AND PRAY AND WHEN I DID BOTH OF THESE THINGS AT THE SAME TIME I LIFE CHANG SO FAST I HAD TO BEATH IN AND OUT TO CATCH MY BREATH ! NOW I SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON ! AT THE TIME EVERY THING WAS GOING ON I WAS ONLY LOOKING AT IT ON ONE SIDE AND NOT LOOKING AT THE BIG PICTURE! NOW I SEE CLER AND LOUD! THINGS HAPPEN TO PEOPLE AND WE JUST HAVE TO HAG ON AND SEE WHAT GOD WILL DO TO HELP US OUT OF WHAT WE ARE GOING THEW! I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO AND I KNOW I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS! JUST BELEAVE THAT!
MY HART IS BROKEN INTO A THOUSAND PEACES! NOT SURE WHAT I AM GOING TO DO! I CARE HOME FROM CORT AND FOUND MY DUTER PACKING UP AND READY TO LEAVE ME HIGHT AND DRY! NOT SURE WHAT SHE IS DOING WITH HER LIFE! I AM IN SO LOST AND MISS MY GOOD MORING GRAND MAW IN THE MORING! NOW I AM CLEAING UP AFTER SHE MOVED OUT! SO MAD TO SEE THE MESS ! NOW I AM JUST LEFT WITH THE MESS SHE SHE MADE! AND THE BILLS SHE OWES! NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO SEE MY GRAND BABBY ANY MORE! EVERY ONE LEFT ME IN MY TIME OF NEED!
TO BE BETRAYED BT THE ONE YOU LOVE? THAT IS WHAT IS ON MY MIND! AS MOST OF MY FOLLERS KNOW I AM IN THE PROCES OF GOING TO THE GRAND JURY! NOT GOOD!Y FIRST TIME AND HOPE FOR IT TO BE MY LAST TIME1 WHAT HURTS THE MOST IDS I HAS BETRAYED MY MY ONLY CHIL AND TROWN UNDER THE BUS! LOVE IS A SRANG THING! IF THAT IS LOVE I DO NOT NEED IT IN MY LIFE! THE OTHER PART THAT HURTS THE MOST IS SHE IS HAVING MY FIRSY GRAND SUN! I AM HAPPY AND THEN I AM SAD! WHAT TO DO I LIKE TO BE ABLE TO SEE MY ONLY GRANS SUN I AM GING TO HAVE! ON THE OTHER HAD I LIKE TO KICK HUR TO THE CURVE AND GO ON WITH MY LIFE AS IIKNOW IT! I AM SO SAD AND I AM SO LOST! ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I THIUGT WOULD BE THERE FOR ME ARE NOT! TIME GFOR ME TO MOVE ON AND PICK BETTER PEOPLE AS MY FRIENDS! SO SAD AND LOST WHAT TO TO?/
IS LIFE A LOSING GAVE! SOME SAY IT IS HOW YOU PLAY THE GAVE! WELL I WAS NEVER GOOD AT PLAYING GAMES! NOW I HAVE TO PUT ON MY GAME FACE AND START TO PLAYTHE GAME OF LIFE! EVER HEARD THE SAYING GOD NEVER GIVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE! WELL MY PLATE IS FULL! GOD IS TRING TO TELL ME SOMETHING! I NEED TO SEE WHAT IT IS HE IS TRYING TO TELL ME! LIF IS SO SHORT AND NEVER A GIVEN THING! SO I GESSI LIFE TODAY FOR TODAY ANS SEE WHERE THAT TAKES ME!
IF YOU HAVE NEVE BEEN TO JAILL LIKE ME! YOU ARE IN FOR A RUDE AWAKING! GOING TO JAILL WAS ALL MOST THE WORST THING I HAVE EVER BEEN THEW AS AN ADULT! I HAVE TO SAY THE WORST THING I EVER WENT THEW WAS BEING BEATEN ALL MOST TO DEATH AND RAPED BY MY KIDS DADDY! NOW AS FOR JAILL IT WAS BAD! ALL YOU ARE TO THEM IS YOU SINN # AND NO NAME! YOU GET WHAT YOU GET ON THERE TIME AND NOT YOUR! EVERY THING YOU DO IS UP TO THEM! GOING TO JAILL OPNED MY EYS UP! NOW I AM LIKE SO SCARED TO SEE A JAILL CELL ANY MORE! WHEN I WENT IN I WAS WITH A GIRL WHO STARVED HER CHILD TO DEATH AND A GIRL WHO STABED HER BOY FRIEND INTHE NECK AND SOME GIRL IN ON A MAGER DRUG BUST WHEREI LIVE AT1 NOT TO PRITTY TO WATCH OR LISSEN TO GIRLS THOW UP AND WITH DROW FROM DRUNG LIKE HURRON! YOU NEVER GET TO SLEEP OR SHOWER WHEE I WAS TILL THEY GIVE YOU YOU MUNKY SUTE AND A TOWLE WITH COULD TAKE FIVE DAYS OR MORE! BOTY DID THE WHOE THING SUCK AND STILL SUKC FOR ME! I MY SELF AN LOOKING AT TEN YEARS IN PRISSON! IALL I AM DOING NOW IS GOING BACK AND FORTH TO CORT AND WHO KNOWS WHEN THAT WILL STOP! WICH I HAD THE $$ FOR A LAWER! WHAT I WOULD DO TO HAVE A GOOD LAWER!
WHAT IT FILLS LIKE TO HAVE SOME ONE THINK I AM SO BEATUFULL! CAN NOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW I FRISL! SOME ONE WHO CALLS AND CHECKS ON ME EVERY DAY! SOME ONE WHO CALLS AND SAYS GOOD MORNING BABY! SOME ONE WHO CALLS ME JUST O LISSEN TO ME AND SOME ONE WHO LOVES ME SIGHT UNSEN! SOME ONE WHO THINKS IAM ALL THAT! I NEVER GET THIS LUCK AND I HOPE I STAY THIS WAY! LOVE IS A GRAND THING! LOVE CAN MOVE A MOUNT AND BILD A BRIG ALL AT THE SAME TIME! LOVE THE WAY HE MAKES ME FILL! HOPE IT NEVER ENDS!
FREEDOM! WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU? HERE LATLEY MYNE MEANS EVERY THING TO ME! YOU CAN HAVE IT ONE DAY AND THE NEXT IT IS GOHN! NEVER TAKE FORGRANTED ANY THING OR ANY ONE HAVE IN YOUR LIFE! LIFE IS SO SHORT AND CAN CHANG IN A BLINK OF AN EYE OR JUST A BAD DISION YOU MAKE! ONE DAY YOU ARE OUT INT THE REALL WORLK AND THE NEXT YOU ARE LOCKED UP AND EVERY THING IS TAKEN AWY FROM YOU! THEN ALL YOU ARE IS SIN # AND YOU WATE TO SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU! ONCE YOU ARE IN THE LEAGAL SYSTEM IT IS SO HARD TO GET OUT OF IT! PEOPLE NEVER LOOKAT YOU THE SAME WHY THEY USED TO AND PEOPLE NEVER TRUST YOU AGAIN! LIFE AS I NO IT HAS CHANGED AND IAM CHANGING TO ! HAVE TO!
YES I SAID IT LIFE CAN CHANG IN A BLINK OF AN EYE! I WAS MAKING PLANS FOR A BETTER LIFE FOR ME! WAS PLANING ON MOVING OUT OF WHERE I LIVED FOR ABOUT 16 YEARS! WAS GOING TO CHANG MY LIFE AND DO BETTER FOR MYSELF! I HAD MADE ALL THESE PLANS AND WAS GOING TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE! NOW I HAVE TO PUT ALL THOSE PKANS TO A STOP AND SEE WHERE THE LEAGLE SYSTEM IS GOING TO TAKE ME! GOT MY SELF IN A JAM AND I HAVE TO GET OUT OF IT! LIFE CAN CHANG IN A BLILK OF AND EYE! YOUR FREDOM AS YOU KNOW IT CAN BE TAKEN AWY FROM YOU! LIFE IS TO CHORT AND IT CAN CHANGE IN A BLIK OF AND EYE!
JUST FOUND OUT FOR THE HOLIDAY THAT I AM GOING TO BE A GRAND MA! NOT TO HAPPY ABOUT THAT ! I FILL I AM TO YOUNG AND WISH SHE HAD WATED TILL SHE WAS MARED AND HAD HER OWNE LIFE1! TO LATE NOW! SHE HAS A JOB AND LIKES IT SHE IS NOVING OUT OF MY HOME TO BE WITH HER STEP DADDY! I AM SAD NOW! I BE ALL ALONE AND HAVE NO ONE! SHE ALL READY FOUNF HER A LIFE COACH AND IS PLANING A POOL SIDE BABY SHOWER! OF CORSE WITH OUT ME! SHE IS DUR BEFOR MY BIRTHDAY! AROUND AUGUST 15 ANF MY BIRTHDAY IS TH 26 TH OF AUGUST! THAT WILL BE NICE! I KNOW I AM GOING TO BE KNOCKED OUT OF THE LABER ROOM ! I WILL LIVE ! I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE MY OWNE PICKS BUT WILL HAVE TO GET THEM WHEN SHE GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL! ALLLREADY BEEN NOCED OUT OF THE DR OFFICE VITS AND THE FIRST ULTER SOUND! IAM SAD BUT LIFE GOES ON AND I WILL HOLD MY HEAD UP AND HOPE SHE GOES THEW SOME OF THE THINGS I HAD TO GO THEW WITH HER!~ LIFE IS TO SHORT FOR WHAT IF SO I HAVE TO GO ON AND MAKE MY OWNE LIFE!
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SOME TIMES I THINK ABOUT WHAT IT WOULD LIKE TO SEE MY BIRTH MOM AND DAD! MY MOM IS ON HER 3 MARAGE AND IS 60 YEARS OLD AND STIL LOKKS GOOD! MY DAD HAVE NOT SEAN HIM SINCE THE STATE CAME AND TOOK US ALL AWAY! I THINK ABOUT HIM AND THIKS I MAY BE MUCH BETTER OFF WITH OUT HIM IN MY LIFE! I AM THE OLDEST OUT OF 6 HOLE SIBLING AND 2 HALF! I HAVE A SISTER AND ONE BROTHERE WHO LIVE NEAR ME! WE TALK SOME TIME AND HANG OUT SOME TIME! SO I HAVE TO SAY FAMILY IS WHO YOU MAKE IT! BELEAVE THAT! FRIENDS COME AND GO IN MY LIFE!