LOVE IS PAIN! I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND IT ANYMORE. ONE DAY IT IS GREAT AND THE NEXT IT IS PAIN. WHY? WHY DO THEY CHANGE SO MUCH CANT THEY JUST BE THE SAME? THEY DONT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM OR CARE FOR THEM. THE THINGS YOU DO TO TRY TO MAKE THEM HAPPY. I THINK THEY JUST DONT CARE. IM STARTING TO FEEL LIKE ALL MEN DO IS USE YOU AND WHEN THEY HAVE HAD ENOUGH THEN THEY LEAVE. BUT WHAT IS DIFFERENT HERE IS THIS GUY JUST DONT LEAVE AND WHEN I LEAVE HIM HE ALWAYS COMES BACK! I DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO GIVE HIM BUT LOVE AND I NEVER HAVE SO WHAT DOES HE WANT? DOES HE JUST LIKE THE FACT THAT HE HURTS THE ONE THAT LOVES HIM THE MOST? I HAVE TO PRETEND THAT I DONT CARE AND EVERYTHING IS JUST FINE AND IM SO HAPPY BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE IM HURTING SO BAD! ALL I WANT IS THE PAIN TO GO AWAY! BUT IF I LEAVE HIM I HURT MORE THEN I DO WHEN IM WITH HIM. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY! WHY CANT THAT EVER HAPPEN? I HOPE SOMEONE CAN HELP ME! CAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP MYSELF!!!!
