Boo Boo Kitty F's blog: "Love and Relationships...."

Hey everyone... not sure who actually reads these, but here it goes... A week or so ago, someone complained my photos on here were inappropiate.. What about everyone else's... There are womens crouches and mens dicks posted all over here, and you do not have to be an adult to see them. My pictures were posted as such... ADULT. So who ever felt the need to do this..."FUCK YOU"... I am now moved to Pennsylvania. I'm hoping all works out here. And I do get to see Brian alot now.. And I don't have to drive over 300 miles to do so. To my "friends" , thanks for listening and being there when I was lonely and bored. I'm here everynow and then. Or if you are my real friends, you know how to get up with me if you need to. I have job interviews next week, i'm getting excited yet scared. Being alone is all new to me. And of course, being with a man that truly loves me is new...BUT WONDERFUL!! I hope I dont fuck this up... Well, thanks for listening. Peace out!!!! Holla Back!

I went camping this past weekend in Williamsburg Va. at a Celtic Fest. If ever you want to stay up all day and nite and drink beer and 18 yr old whiskey...this is the festival for you... I must admitt I was a lil shit faced Fri. nite til Sat. at 4am ...slept and started again at 10 am.... what a frickin day. But.... there was one thing wrong. Me and the best man in the world usually talk all day back and forth... But we were both to busy for that Sat. I just need to tell him and THE WORLD... i MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU BRIAN....I LOVE YOU. Im counting down the days until we can be together again... and its getting rough. The things that are going on in both our lives is making the wait hurt so bad.....I know the wait has been good for both of us, we have got to talk and know each other so well... But "fuck" that...lol lol...i'm ready to be with you....I have realized all these trips that I have always done by myself..(even thou I was married)... would be so complete with you and all the children... You are breath in the morning and every nite before I go to sleep... I think of you all day... I know I had a good time this weekend, cause my daughter and sister were with me... But it could have been WONDERFUL.. if you and your children were there... I love you...and cant wait til we are together... Hey to all of you who just get on here to talk "shit" to someone... watch out... Love could come your way, just like it did me... (and to all the women...) Go to the Celtic Fest. next year in Williamsburg... Taste whiskey and see what "REAL" Scotsmen wear under there Kilts....hehehehehehe... (nothing)

I'm home again... This time I absolutly do not know for how long. I am 90% sure i'm moving back to Pennsylvania. The 10% left over is not doubt, just lack of finances....I pulled into RR /Gaston area yesterday, only to feel sick...I honestly felt as thou I would puke. I love my sister and her Husband (Jerry), them and Yumi is the only "real" family I have. But other than them, I hate everything about this area... The memories, the smell, ( and anyone that has ever been down here knows what I mean, Paper Mill....LOL) I went out last night with Yumi and Josh...and several of their friends...I was nervous to even be out, I'm always afraid "he" or his "skank" will walk thru the door. So we hung in the back so I saw everyone... With the ppl I was with, I had a wonderful time. But feel bad, cause I had to be "drunk" to even be out. This time when I went to Pa. I stayed with my "cousin" and her family. I did enjoy this. I give her credit to work 3 jobs and raise 2 teens alone. With hardly and problems from them. They are great kids... I saw my "Aunt" Helen... Who is battleing her 6 th cancer. this is her 2nd time for her liver. She is not doing well at all this time. I'm glad I spent time with her. She's always been there for our family for 40 yrs..I wish I could do more for her... I talked to me and my sisters best friend. That was great. She never changes. Which brings me to the best time I had up there this past week.....I met the most wonderful man. We've talked here for awhile...And I knew I wanted to meet him, but with all that is going on and has went on in my life, I was scared...Its all still a little new to me. I do not know what to expect on a "date"...which we had last Saturday... It was the sweetest, most fun I have had in years. We talked, ate at Olive Garden (One of my favs. , which he picked out...the only desision I had to make was what I wanted to eat..) Or evening was cut short when a call from his babysitter stating his daughter was sick. This is understandable , when you date a single father with 3 children. But, my thing was, he was so conserned (as a father should be). But this was so sweet, and for some reason, I saw something in him, I'm not used to seeing in any father...and it made me like him even more. Then he was upset he had to cut our date short...Of course I was upset, but only because I wanted to spend more time with this wonderful person, but to me it's never an issue when it comes to your children, they come first.... I saw him on Fri nite/Sat morning to start with... but this was the start of what I would hope to be a great relationship... From then we saw each other every nite... I finally met his children, and saw him in action... This made me feel even more connected to him. He is a wonderful person, father and man... I dont't think my life could get any better at this moment...( well, it could if I had money and I was up there with him right now) i HONESTLY NEVER THOUGHT i COULD LOVE AGAIN...I only wanted a friend , but I hope I've found more than that. We have a long ways to go, we both have "ex marriage" things to do.. we have time... All I know is at this moment, I'm sitting home alone, and I'm missing him...His smile, this thoughtfulness of bringing me a rose...or a Diet Pepsi... It's the small things that helped him warm my heart....I may be "in love" again guys!!!!! hehehehehe.....