ScorpioRising76's blog: "Love and Life"

This last summer I lived in Salem, IL. I was single, working, had my own apartment. I was browsing the internet and searching for dating sites and stumbled across Fubar. When you start and go to the main page it says it's a social and dating site. I started liking and adding people as friends, going into the lounges, getting to know more and more people. As I was doing all this over a period of time one female seemed to chat and talk to me daily. Sometimes it was more than once a day. She helped in one or two of the lounges so that was why she was on here daily as well. 

  As the days and weeks progressed and we chatted more we got to know each other well. We went to texting. A couple weeks later I talked her into calling me because my job is a driving job and I can't text while driving, but I have a bluetooth so I can talk. One day down the road in the lounges someone was talking about Skype, which gave me an idea. I asked her if she'd done Skype before and she said she was currently...so we started skyping as well. The more and more we got involved and got to know each other we seemed to click and had a connection.

By this time it's been a couple months or so. Although still chatting, and pretty much about anything. I believe at one point we talked for almost 6 or 7 hours. There wasnt' one time we talked for less than 2 hours. It was great. It's hard to believe you can get a strong connection with someone you met off the internet without yet meeting them in person. The fact of the matter is we had a lot in common and we seemed to be able to talk to one another smoothly like we could talk about anything and everything. 

In the midst of our conversations we talked about meeting in person. We had a plan, which is what all good couples should do together. She made the decision to save up her money and on the date she decided she took a Greyhound bus for 2 days and came to visit me for 4 days. I couldn't believe it. No woman had ever took the initiative to want to come to me. From that point I knew this was special. We did what all couples would do on a first meet, maybe more considering, but we had a wonderful time. We even took pics of us together and posted them on here and FB. When she had to go back home I felt sad, alone, and like we wouldn't see each other again.

I went back home, but as I was traveling I got a text message. It was from her, and it was a bus tracking number to where I could monitor her bus as she went back home. We also text each other and Voxed each other the whole time. Another week goes by and we're still at it. I'm thinking..man this relationship is going great. One time we had a conversation about living together, being in love, and living out our lives together as a very happy couple. We wanted it. I mean who doesn't want to be happy?
I started thinking, and whoever knows me well enough knows my thinking can be dangerous at times lol. I had a job here, but the company was nationwide. All I had to do is check things out and see if I could get the job back from before that ai had left on good terms with because they had a branch over their. The biggeest thing was my family. Being farther away from them. I was already 4 or 5 hours away. She talked me into it by telling me that we would go back twice a year to visit my family. From there I planned it out. I ended up putting my notice in for work, buying totes to put things in, sorting my clothes. I don't have much. I ended up filling my truck up and putting a tarp over it with bungee cords.

I departed around the end of July or beginning of August. Before I could actually go 900 miles though I had to see my family another time. So I went to see them for a fewdays, and I left on August 3rd. I stopped halfway and stayed at a hotel. Got their the next afternoon. For a week an a half we were great as could be. Then she got sick. She went to the ER and they said she had severe strep throat. a few days later she went back and said she has tonsilitis. What was going on here, I don't know. After the ER the second time she was admitted for a few days on IV's putting liquids in her body. after a few days there she came home. Not 100%, but they said it would pass. She went from living room chair to the bed constantly because she couldn't get comfortable. She stated she had a hard time keeping food down and her chest, sides and back hurt. One day early in the morning I was leaving for work and she was in the chair. I woke her up, gave her a kiss goodbye, said I love you, and left. 7 hours later I get a call from her oldest boy and all he could say to me was "Ron...mom is dead!" I got a tight knot in my stomach, and a lot of frustration and weird thoughts in my head. I left work and headed straight their. When I got their she was in the bed laying and gone...

The police, EMT's, and even forensic people had been their already. They said she ahd been that way for about 6 or 7 hours, which told me that it had happened just after I left. I was in shock for a week or two. The mom had kicked me out because they were moving and there wasn't going to be enough room for me where hey were going. I had to start all over again from scratch. At this time all I have is a job and my own personal vehicle. I stayed at my job just living out of my truck for almost a month. After I made some money working I stayed in a hotel till I could find a place of my own. Moral of this is that you don't know what you got till it's gone...well at the time...I knew exactly what I had, and it was gone like that...no warning...