cerenitycaydence's blog: "lost"

well........me and joe are no more....he decided last night that i wasnt good enough for him...oh well, there will be someone else to catch me (if i want him to) that doesnt think that, in my eyes he isnt good enough for me, especially since he cant get it up for a pretty girl like me....lol so i am going back to north carolina...and while i will miss being in texas, i will be surrounded by friends and fam...and that is what i need right now cassie

well, yesterday was a really bad day for me i lost someone that i cared for alot. and it hurt me pretty badly. so i cried, something that i never do. it shocked the ppl that i live with. they have never seen me cry before and now they treat me as if i am going to break like a piece of glass. but what really hurts me is that my boyfriend isnt being here for me, i dont have a shoulder to cry on so i can just get it all out...he didnt even care when i talked to him about this...he just told me to get over it that everybody dies....i am soo confused and not just mad but pissed off!!!!

lost i'm lost, i cant find my way im blind, i cant see the road in front of my face im deaf, i cant hear what people say im scared, so i pick up the pace my heart and head are pounding there is something inside of me its suffocating, in my head its surrounding it makes me wonder what i feel and see the air is thick im slicked with sweat there seems, on my cheast, to be a brick but i cant lift it, my hands are wet i tremble and i shake i hit the ground then i feel my heart brake it seems like ive been on a merry go round im lost, i cant find my way im blind, i cant see the road in front of my face im deaf, i cant hear what people say im scared, so i pick up the pace