Sweettreats4utoo's blog: "lonley"

created on 09/14/2015 | http://fubar.com/lonley/b364636

posted on 12/03/2023&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;04:12&nbs-08:00;pm

Another year has come and gone.
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12/3/23

Well this year has went by so fast and it not long until christmas. Christmas is a stressful time of the year for me as I have kids and they dont get much of anything for christmas and sometimes not anything at all. This year has been a rough year for me but I am hoping that 2024 brings in alot more better things and stress isnt in it as it has been in 2023. Being a single mom of 2 kids is never easy but I will always make sure they are first no matter what. This weather changing so often is driving me crazy lately. Hot one day cold the next rainy days it all sucks. But it happens. My kids fathers not in the picture neither one contact or even worry about how they are. But my kids will know I was always there no matter what and will always be there until the day I die. Having only my dad left in my life and it being there grandpa it is alot. But in time things will hopeful be better in 2024 and continue to be good at least that what I pray for.

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posted on 08/05/2022&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:08&nbs-07:00;pm

Sad
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There are many days that I sit and wonder why I am sad or why am I always blamed for everything when something goes wrong. Then at the end of the day it always as I'm the bad guy of it all. Every time I've dated, they always blame me when it goes wrong, and I just don't understand that part of it all. Every time it happens if you changed since we started dating or something of that note. I never asked for it to happen but raising 2 kids with no one to fall back on or lean on. But I will say that they kids are the best thing that has ever happen to me. They are my world and make me so happy. I know God had a plan when I was told at a young age that I would never have kids and I am very thankful for the 2 kids that I do have. It been 5 years since I've dated anyone, and it seems like my dating days are done and that there no more dating for me. My kids are my focus, and they will always be that way. But it seems as it will always be me to blame when something goes wrong in dating, and I wish it wasn't that way, but it seems so happy every time. I sometimes wonder are they scared to admit their own wrongs. I mean if they are scared to admit their own wrongs then why even try to date. It has happened so often and so much has happen that it always me to be blamed in the end. I just don't understand it but maybe one day things will be better and happier in life. Ever since I was a kid growing up, I have bottled my feeling up inside and till this day I still bottle them up inside until I end up snapping and then it all let out. Everyone claims to be my friend, but it sure doesn't seem like it here lately. Life hasn't been the kindest thing. But I am thankful for what family I do have in my life even if it just my dad and my 2 kids that's better than not having anyone at all to count on. Stress is enough to make you want to scream sometimes because it does often for me. I have been told to write my feeling down on how I feel about it all but it does no good because it dont seem normal to do it. Well that all for now have a wonderful night.

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posted on 09/14/2015&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;05:09&nbs-07:00;am

call me
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Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go
Straight into the mouth of the unknown

Left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekend
I lost my whole life and a dear friend

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way

I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time

I kept my whole life in suitcase
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be
You know I've led my life like a gypsy

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way

I'll always keep you inside
You healed my heart and my life
And you know I tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way
So I'll be on my way, so I'll be on my way