Why Do You Insist On Pissing Me Off's blog: "Lonely Tearz"

I Love You ! That is what your untrustworthy lips spoke to me the night your soul and mine broke out in battle. As i sat trying to absorb everything, my soul began to grow angry.How can you tell me you love me and yet bring yourself to lay your filthy hands upon me. Cowardness drove you to that point. The fear of loosing control. Helplesness began to flood my body as scattered hands slammed aimlesly upon my trembling body. My anger slowly begins to fade and dark rage begins to settle inside me. My eyes glow with insanity as i leap upon you and return the pain you have brought me. Fits of insanity help me thru the night and battle. My lungs fill with air and quickly empty as i scream out for help. People flood the dark damp street as they listen to a 20 yr old girl get beat. Rushing down a flight of stairs, running to hold onto her life she stop and turns to see the people that had gathered to listen to her life be beaten away from her. Her eyes fill with fury as she screams to those that could of helped her and did nothing but prefer a line of coke or their next fix of heroin. Five years have past and still that girl trembles to the thought of a man over powering her. Tears flood her eyes as she trys to block Him out of her memories. His grin, His eye, His hands slamming upon her haunt her and always will.A shell slowly begins to form over me. That fragile kind hearted girl everyone once knew had a drastic change of life one night in October. A thick wall builds and a shell forms around me. allowing Noone or nothing to hurt me ever again. You will Never hurt me again. May You suffer the way i am. I hope the devil has no compassion for You and tortures your soul the way you have tortured me all these years.

A lonely tear flows silently down my cheek as i sit quietly on a bench in the park. My eyes wonder about catching glimpses of the things we used to do together. I stand as a cold drop of rain smashes down upon my face. As it slides down yet another tear rolls from my eyes caressing my cheek the way his smooth hands used to when we laid in bed together. walking silently i hold myself tightly as the rain drops grow faster and stronger. My paces now speed up as i try to avoid the rain. My tears have now blended into the rain that has smuthered my face. Reaching my home i run inside shaking off my wet clothes as i walk quickly thru a silent hall. My eyes close as i slide my wet body down the cold wall sitting.Sitting on the floor my tears begin to emerge from their hiding spot as i reminice of the times we had. Unanswered questions flood my head. Why this happen? What did i do wrong? Has it been a game from the begining? These are all things he must answer. I stand, shaking off the excess water from my body i walk towards my room. My hand presses against the heavy wooden door and pushes it slowly. As a creak fills the room a noise echos off the walls. There he stands. In my room as if nothing has happened. Quickly i walk back out of the room and towards the kitchen. His wordds fill my head and i begin to believe his every word. My foolishness has let me fall once again into the web of love. Written By: Meh ! aka Jennifer Ortiz.