Over 16,529,853 people are on fubar.
What are you waiting for?
July 23, 2007
There are times in your life where sadness seems inevitable and love is unreachable. You fall in love only to get hurt, you fall out of love because you are hurt, and you go looking for love to cure the hurt. It's a viscious cycle. Why go looking for love? No one can truly explain it. Is it a desire, a need, a fantasy.....who knows? I know that I have spent half of my life looking for it, coming close a few times and in the end coming up empty handed. If my heart is broken anymore, there will probably be none of it left. It may be full of holes, but it can still comprehend love and be filled with love. Love is that one thing in life I truly desire more than any feeling.
Love is supposed to be patient, I know - but patience is a virtue I no longer have. I want love and I want to feel love. Not the words....but the motions, the looks, the touch...you all know what I mean. You know, the kind of love where actions are spoken louder than words. I want to know and feel that love by looking in his eyes, feeling his touch, and tasting his kisses. I want to know that kind of love where I am first in his life, but he still has a life. To me, a real love s not the beginning of a whole new life, but the intertwining of two lives together, creating a better life. Oh, to feel that kind of love.
I want a love built on trust, honesty, sincerity, clarity, and friendship. I know that's not out there...at least nowhere in my grasp - nowhere I've ever looked. There's the fake love where people say they'll give you these things, but don't. I have had too much of that love. It leave you heartbroken and sad. Torn and sore. So, needless to say, my heart is broken, sad, torn, and sore. It is in need of major repair. But like I said, the only way to repair a heart broken by love is to love again...and that won't be for a while. Love is nowhere within reach of my heart. I want love but I'm not looking for it. It will come to me. It will find me. It will seek me.
