so just another boring day here in ohio. theres always so much time to just sit and think. to many times i find myself thinking to deeply and wondering how i could change the past and how i could have done so much differently to make the people around me more happy. but what ive come to realize, i can do whatever for anyone and they dont even appreciate it or come to notice it. i realize that maybe im just to nice and maybe if i start acting the way most do towards me then maybe theyd realize how much i do for them and how much i care and try to make their life better. everyone has that one special person in their life they can always count on for no matter what. you dont ever realize how much you rely on that person until their gone. they can leave for whatever reason. no matter how they leave it still hurts when that person is nowhere to be seen and you cant be with them anymore. its just amazing how one person can change anothers entire life over one mistake. and its also amazing how after being hurt so terribly your to scared to just give in and be close to someone again. i just think that the world moves to fast. no one stops and notices the beautiful things in life that we can learn from and cherish. its sad to say that it takes a great tragedy to happen before you start realizing that maybe your life isnt so bad and maybe you do have everything you want or need. the world is run by power and wealth. but what they say, money cant buy the best things in life is true. theres so many things i would love to change but its to late. and as i sit here and watch people go by i wish there was someway to open their eyes so they can realize how much their missing each day because one day it will all be gone. it just takes that one person to change your life dramatically. and thats when you realize that life has so much to offer. never give up hope and keep the memories of those that are no longer with us in your heart and mind. but dont be afraid to open up to new people that enter into our lives because we must live for the future and not for the past. its our dreams and goals that keep us moving forward. well once again ct thanks for your time.
