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I am so sick and tired of the drama of my life. My ex still wont take no for an answer. He is still trying to get me to come back to him. What part of NO doesnt some people understand. I am just so ready to go into hiding. I am tired of him blaming me for everything that has went wrong in his life in the last two weeks, then to have him turn around and then expect me to get back with him. I just dont understan it. He is not giving me time to get passed the fact that he ripped my heart out and shredded it. Why cant some people just understand that once trust is broken, it is almost impossible to restore. I dont want to go through that kind of pain with him again. I know that is what would happen. So, why would I put myself through that? I cant be with someone I dont tust and I dont trust him. Will probably never trust him again.
Have you ever had a day when nothing seems to go right? I have had a couple of months like that. If I could, I would have stayed drunk the last 2 months. Maybe then I wouldnt have to think. I am cursed with an analytcal mind. Eveything that happens, my brain auomatically wants to analyze it. I am so tired of analyzing every little thing that happens. The worst part is, my ex, who cheated on me, all of a sudden wanted to get back together with me. I of course, said no, but he just got it in his mind that we were getting back together. Would not take no for answer. So, I started seeing someone, someone he knows. Things did not go well at all. He did everything in his power to destroy my relationship with this other guy. I have known this other guy for 14 yrs., he is a great person. I enjoy spending time with him, he makes me laugh and he is a great friend. I didnt know until recently that he has had a crush on me for like 10 yrs. So, we have remained friends, hoping that one day my ex will get passed this whatever it is, so that we can see if maybe something between us will happen. Anyway, if you can help me figure this out, please let me know. I am at the end of my rope.
