Boo's blog: "Life"

Im sittin here at work and its dead like always and I hate it because then I have to much time to think..

I don't think anyone realizes just how much you miss someone until its to late and they aren't around.. I know she hasn't been gone but for a few days.. But knowing that I may not get her back for a while kills me..

So help me God I will never and I mean never complain about not having any time to myself.. I can honestly say I miss hearing the "mommy I need you" or "mommy I peed" followed by a lil giggle.. Or getting up in the middle of the night triping over her baby dolls or her sippie cup she left right before bed..

I won't complain about a 1 min shower alone or getting home to find she had gotten into my make up and wants to know if she looks pretty..

These are momments I may never get back.. and at this point I will do what it takes to get that back..

Sittin here with nothing to do really.. I could clean but the mess will be here in the morning.. Its not going anywhere fast.. Hell I just don't know anymore.. When I think things are lookin up for me i get shot down hard.. Im old enough to know things don't just get handed to you and you have to work your ass off for what you want.. But damn can't I get a break some where.. Sorry I had toblow steam somewhere.. Just a lot built up and no were to blow it..