today is the anniversary of my mom's death. she's been gone 2 years now. she died of cancer.
last night my husband left... will he come back... I don't know. All I can do is hope and pray that he finds the answers he needs to find.
Will I linger on the fact he is gone? I'm going to try not to... Life is hard enough when you have help getting through... It'll be tough to make it with me and the kids...
I have to find another job... can't make it on just $8.50/hr even if it is full time... I have a house that I'm buying... bills to pay and my kids to take care of. they are my number one concern.
So I won't have much time to even think of him being gone out of my life.
My daughter is upset this morning... she woke up and asked where's daddy... I told her that he decided not to stay... she said but I thought you said this was daddy's house too... I told her I did say that but that daddy felt it was best this way... but she didn't need to worry we both still loved her...
I really hate life...
just when you think you have a chance...
life throws bullshit your way...
anyways... I respect marcus for how he thinks... he needs his time to gather himself and find out what he needs to know... I repsect and understand it but I don't have to like it.
If he decides that this life isn't really for him, I wish him the best all though it will kill me... but I have to. I owe him that much.
anyways... well, that's my blog for this day... I have an hour before I have to leave for work...
