ok so i posted this blog sept. of last year... but the same thigns are going on again... sooo i thought i would post it on here....
I've never been as hurt or felt as rejected as i did today.... why is it that my husband can claim to love me so dearly but yet he seem to not find me desirable.... the only time he holds me or kisses me even slightly passionately is when i have bitched and complained about it....
is it so wrong to want more then to just be "told" you are loved.. to want to be held,,, to have a warm loving arm wrapped over me in the night... i want to be called beautifully by some one other then some stranger on the Internet... i want to be told I'm special by the man who promised to love me forever... will there never again be romance in my life... soft music playing, the warm glow of candle light, a genital touch on my cheek, the caress of a lovers lips against mine....
i truly cant remember when i last had a kiss that made me go weak in the knees...
i no not to dare ask to be treated like a queen,, but i want to be wanted.....
why don't i deserve to have some one put me on a pedestal????
even dressed in a very sexy lace teddy his only reactions was " yeah, its nice."
