Ok, for anyone who knows me knows that life is tough for me. What you don't know is that I always seem to mess up. Who doesn't right? Well, I know that I have messed up a lot lately. Particularly, in doing things that I really should not do because I know better. I always keep telling myself that it is ok because it is the right choice at the moment although I know that I should think more about whether it is going to be the right choice in the future. Right? Anywho, people should know that I love my kids to death. What I can't get over is the fact that the good lord apparently thought that I was able to deal with things that he would throw my way with dealing with them. Sometimes I question whether he/she could be wrong. Actually most of the time I am sure that he is wrong. I mean who thought that a 27 year old would have to deal with a 7 year old child that has ADHD with medications that doesnt work, who also has a blood disorder that requires so much of the whole family. Doctor appointments, blood work weekly, restricting everything that the child does. Not to mention a 4 year old with severe developmental delays (possible autism) speech problems, behavior problems, and a 3 year old brilliant child who has problems with behavior due to her immitating her brothers, severe asthma, and allergic reactions to foods. Yeah, who would have thought. If someone comes up with a good plan I don't already know about, let me know!
