Loving myself's blog: "How I feel"

ALL WE ARE IS A SHOOTING STAR

Maybe this life is just about love and tenderness. I was sitting here and decided to listen to music stored on my computer. The music brought me back to a time I believed in love. That’s is magical and mysterious. But, as with anything…………If love is not nurtured and cherished, you can have it fade away. I believe this with all my heart. I have decided to take all the different parts of all these songs to try and explain what love is in my heart…….
If words don’t come my way……..I hope it still shows…….What my heart wants to say…..I surrender to this feeling so true……….
I find it hard to believe that someone could ever feel that way  about me? I guess I will forever feel a loneness inside I cant explain. I am good with words, but it seems they have no meaning anymore. People can say anything but I have learned that without action they are meaningless. 
Tell me have you seen her? I am waiting for that special love. Have you seen her? Baby please be mine.
Explain to me what that means? We all search for the “ONE”. Is there such a thing? Its as if we look for this perfect person to complete us. Ying/Yang if you will. Lets get real! Its starts with attraction, be it a smile or a look given that turns our insides upside down! You know that stomach drop or butterflies?  Ever meet someone that you cant seem to stop looking at? Its almost an obsession.  I have been feeling that for two years. Its almost as if I need to know what’s its like to make love to them. Even it is only once. It’s a deep primal instinct. 
Love gets inside you………Time can hurt………I cant bother alone in this world……..
Why do we always want what we can not have? To be willing to risk it all for a chance. Bottom line? If that person truly wanted you, they step up and make you real………
Rock me baby…..Just say you want to do it…..Open up your heart and let the lovin start…….Women take my in your arms and rock me baby…….
We all want to be wanted, cherished and loved. Yet, when its right in front of us, a chance for happiness, most scare and run. I have been running for 41 years now. Can’t seem to get it right. I guess its time to love or be loved? Always one loves more then the other. I honestly thought I had met the one true love of my life. No such a thing. I have learned a valuable lesson this past year.
The lesson is no one can truly make you happy till you make yourself happy first. Love yourself.
Sad eyes……Looks like its over……..You knew I couldn’t stay…..We had a good thing………I miss your sweet love………Its over……..Sad eyes turn the other way…When we would have to say goodbye………Try to remember the magic we shared……..I never used you…….I really cared…But…………Its over.

Thought I heard your voice yesterday……..Then I realized it was just my mind playing tricks on me…………I can’t believe we are through…….I miss you…..Its so easy to see I miss you and me….
Dedicated to my music……..For showing me love I have never felt before. Always……..I can’t believe