Well, life is the best it has been in a very very long time...I have come to the realization that I am where Im suppose to be...and Im happier than I could have ever imagined...and its all thanks to a conversation with someone who means alot to me...whether he knows it or not...and it was thanks to him that I realized just what I have...I have a wonderful man beside me, who takes care of me and loves and respects me...and I love him more than he will ever know...I have a girlfriend that I love more than she will ever know...she is an amazing woman...I have never met anyone like her...and I would not trade either of them for the world...I have a roof over my head, food in my tummy, good friends and a family who loves me...Im working on getting a job...everything seems to be falling into to place perfectly...or rather as perfectly as my life will allow...my life is pure imperfection and I could not ask for more...I refuse to give up this life for anything...Im happy...I am completely and untterly fulfilled...and I have never felt this way before...I am in a permanent state of contentness and happiness...my life is as is should be...and I wish the best to all of you who read this...I hope you can all find the pleasure of being truly happy...it is an amazing feeling indeed...I could not be happier...It has taken me awhile to grasp it all but it has all finally fallen into place...and I am thankful til no end about what the Goddess has given me...but just as she has given it to me...she can take it away...so I am thankful to her for it all...because she is allowing me such a joyous feeling...
I want to thank Daniel for talking to me the other night and helping me to see what I have...and for helping me open my eyes...whether he realizes he did it or not...Thank you Daniel...I love you...you have no idea what you have done for me...and Im here if you ever need me...dont you ever forget that...
I want to thank Kris for being the amazing woman she is...and loving me and being here for me...I love you baby...more than you will ever know...more than words them-selves can describe...you are truly something specail to me...and I just wanted you to know...
I want to thank Dave for letting me love his wife as much as I do...and for being there when I was alittle scattered brained and lost...you are an amazing man David...I dont know what I would do without you sometimes...you always seem to know what to say to help me figure it all out!
I want to thank Chase for the past 4 months...you have been a dream...you have managed to put up with me and take care of me for so long...and you never seem to ask for much...just my love...well, hunny, let me tell you...you have more than just that...I LOVE YOU GARRETT CHASE BOYD!...you are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with...you are the one I choose...
I want to thank all the poor fools who let me go...because without all of you...I would not be here...and I would have the things I have...and I would not be the woman I am today...I owew you all more than you will ever know...
and most of all I want to thank the Goddess...because she has given me all these wonderful things...and she has put me on this path...without her...I would be nothing...
well, Im getting ready to take another little vacation with Chase and his family...YAY ME!...two vacations in one month...Im on a roll here...lol...we are going to the beach for a week...I will let you all know when I return and I should have lots of pictures to show for it...but I guess we will just have to wait and see...wish me luck everyone and keep us in your prayers that we have a safe return...
