I sit here and wonder why people feel they have to lie to others about things. Is it because they have nothing better to do? Do they get kicks making people feel like shit? I been led on by a story of sorts, and today was the day things were supposed to happened. But as par for the course in my life it must have all been a lie. This person had my hopes up that I might have a chance at life, only to not show up, not answer their phone or text messages and leave me hanging. With all the things in my life right now this of all things I did not need nor can handle. I honestly dont know if I will survive this or not it just might be the thing that pushes me over the edge finally. I sit here and wonder what have I done so bad to deserve this life and realize more and more I dont even want my life anymore. I just cant deal with the pain of it anymore.