MissClassyC's blog: "Kiss_and_Tell"

If you can imagine it, you can build it -- and with a loyal support team, you might get more done than you'd originally planned. Assemble your think tank carefully, and don't be afraid to assume the leadership position. I need to live by this, seriously!!!!

Yesterday seemed so gloomy, rain clouds rolled over my head as I sat outside of work and cried. I sat on the curb and wanted to scream so hard at the one thing I don't believe in, and that was God. Why he would take someone who has given their chance of life away is beyond me. Around 2 I got the dreaded phone call, my uncle Elvin had passed away and I had no real chance to say goodbye. It's so fucking hard right now, I've done nothing but cry by myself. I don't understand this circle of life and how it determines who gets to stay and who goes. He gave up a piece of himself to save another life so he gets the shit end of the stick? That is bullshit and I'm so fucking mad right now. I JUST NOW got over my cousin and good friend dying two weeks apart last October. When I thought I could get passed all of this and move on I'm slapped again. Grr, I just don't know how to feel right now. I don't know what to say or do but I know that when I go to visitations tonight I just might lose my fucking mind. :( R.I.P Elvin Brock You'll forever been in my heart, mind and soul. Not only did you help mold and create the person I am today, but you were there as backup and guidance. May you rest in peace in whatever afterlife you may be in, because you of all souls deserve it. May you look down upon us all and continue to help up through the journey of life, for the bumps and hard times are harder without your words of wisdom. Xoxo, Miss Classy Cunt

Today I read some entries from a old journal. Oh how I had no clue about life at all. I wish I would've known then what I do now but that is life experience, right? A lot of it made me giggle, I use to be (and I guess sometimes still can be..) so dumb and silly. I can tell that I was having a lot of fun mainly because I was young and that is what you do. I miss that so much at times, well not all the dumbass mistakes, but def the "freedom". I'm still pretty young but not so rebel like. Unless you consider smoking pot while driving rebel. Haha. I've decided that here soon I'm taking a vacation someplace alone. I want to just get in the box, drive a few hours away and stay in a hotel. Visit a friend maybe, or even just go someplace just to be by myself. I've had a lot on my mind and shoulders this week and I can't really handle much more stress honestly. Look at me - rambling again on here. Hahahaha. I get too stoned and thoughtful. Plus everyone is out of the house and I have to work tomorrow. Grr, why did I agree to a Sunday wait? Oh yeah, that's right..I"M BROKE. Fuck you government.. I think I'm gonna go for a walk. That'll clear my mind and hopefully put me to sleep. If not I'm gonna go watch reruns of Tripping the rift. Xoxo, Miss Classy Cunt

Well, I'm awake as usual by myself. Too much has been going through my mind lately and it's insane inside this place. I've noticed how down and depressed I've been for some time now and I now understand it is my own fault. I wanted to grow up and be an' adult way too fast and now I'm stumbling foot over foot with my decisions. What happened to being innocent and pure and enjoying life. Instead I'm messing up time after time and clinging to things I want so desperately to come true. It isn't, it won't and I hate to give up hope but seriously it's been a long hard road. And this time the bump knocked me off and it feels like it's time to move on. Now, before you think I'm all emo cry baby I'm really not. I'm just so sick and tierd of being, well...sick and tierd. I need to kick it in gear, as well as the people around me because this is Heather's life and Heather needs to fucking get it together. I feel bad for some things I've done recently, but I won't let that hold me back. Sometimes I feel like it is perfect and I should just spread my wings and fly away from this place. Leave all of it behind me. And then I don't want to regret although all I'm doing now is regreting/regreting/regreting. This is so not the time of night to be babbling on here, I just had a really hard reality-slap in the face today at work. Sometimes coworkers are right and when I feel myself swell up with tears over personal shit then I know I'm not happy. I can't even talk about it without starting the fucking water works. LAME. I wish I could get it all together, do it and just go with it. BUT AHH! I'm not a teen anymore, noooo more. Times to make sparks and fireworks happen rather than day dream it all away. Before I know it I'll be 40, alone, bitter with 30 snakes like a fucking old cat lady. Oh yeehaw. xoxo Miss Classy Cunt Hello I've waited here for you Everlong Tonight I throw myself into And out of the red, out of her head she sang Come down And waste away with me Down with me Slow how You wanted it to be I'm over my head, out of her head she sang Chorus- And I wonder When I sing along with you If everything could ever feel this real forever If anything could ever be this good again The only thing I'll ever ask of you You've got to promise not to stop when I say when She sang Verse 2- Breathe out So I could breathe you in Hold you in And now I know you've always been Out of your head, out of my head I sang Chorus- And I wonder When I sing along with you If everything could ever feel this real forever If anything could ever be this good again The only thing I'll ever ask of you You've got to promise not to stop when I say when She sang Chorus- And I wonder If everything could ever feel this real forever If anything could ever be this good again The only thing I'll ever ask of you You've got to promise not to stop when I say when She sang

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Hi everyone! This is my first blog and well all first blogs are always so lame "yada yada I'm new here..blahblah". Not this time. We'll skip all of that. I'm trying to get myself a blast. Maybe someone should buy me one! If I could I would bat my eyelashes! Haha. But on the serious note, I'm looking to meet new cool people. Also some help on what the hell I'm doing sometimes. This place can be a little confusing but I'm so I'll get the hang of it soon. Well I'm being lame and have no idea what to put here so hit me up! I love photo comments and try to update as often as possible. xoxo, Classy Cunt