I'm putting this out there, because I'm confused - A state I'm not entirely used to.
If you've read my other blogs, you know I have a 20 year old daughter - And that I hadn't seen her since she was 3 years old.
Well, now she is with me and my family. And for the life of me, I just don't know how to talk to her. I *want* to talk to her.. I want to know her, and catch up on all those years..
But every time I start - I freeze up. Something just stops me. I barely get out a Hi, and then I clam up.
It's getting to me. I want to be able to share MY life with her, and share HER life with me. It's stupid that I can share details of my life SO easily with all of you here - But not with her.
I think part of it is the guilt I feel at allowing her to be out of my life those 17 years. Another part could be that since I am not working because of an injury, I feel guilty at not being able to give her all she needs.
I'm confused.
I need advice.
